fucked up situation... i have a friend, let's call her lauren. lauren doesn't like hooking up with her friends. i happened to get too close cause i liked her, got friendzoned. i know the theory, you have feelings for a friend like that and you have to be prepared to lose them as a friend. i said no problem, whatever. i have tons of other girls on my dick, i just wanna date this particular one. anyways, told her how i felt somewhat. hinted at it. told ehr i found her cute, soemtimes.. whatever.. i had to make a statement of interest because i've been her "bro" too long. basically i wound up not speaking to her for the next couple weeks because i had no interest in her after that. what she told me led me to believe i can't get what i want, so that's it. i'm cool with it. not gonna complain, not gonna cry, not gonna try and convince her to date me or hook up with me, that's pathetic. i said i understand and i said please dont try to talk to me, it's hard for me to be around you without feelign a certain way. so if you don't wanna contribute to that, then you'll understand. and believe me, i don't have a problem getting with girls. i'm good looking, awesome at conversation.. im great at the pick up. the relationship stuff is where i lack. i just dont know what to do after ive fucked them. anyways, couple of weeks go by and she's at a party im at. i don't say hi, don't speak to her, whatever. im not going out of my way to not talk to her... im just not going out of my way to talk. fast forward a couple hours and im about to leave... saying my good byes, she sees this. takes me outside. goes like this: her: are you really not gonna talk to me me: [shakes head] her: blah blah this is unfair blah blah her: blah blah you're unreasonable blah blah me: [keep making faces, not speaking] her: [goes back inside] by the way, my whole point of freezing her out with being friends with her was to show her im not fucking around, and to hopefully not see me as a "buddy". anyways, i thought about what just happened and decided i should apologize for being a doosh and just sitting there shaking my head instead of talking. i go back inside, bring her outside and the converstaion goes something like this: me: listen, the only reason i brought you out here was to apologize for not speaking and being a doosh her: alright but this is so unfair me: yeah, but you know how i feel. im sorry i cant help how i feel. her: so, that's it? me: yeah... i guess i'll see you later her: bye and i leave. i go to taco bell to eat, its close to 2 am at this point. i get a text on my phone that reads "you're being so unreasonable right now" i reply back with "im sorry you know how i feel. i dont udnerstand why you keep talking to me" i get back "i'll be home in 10 minutes. can i call you when i get home to talk about this?" i reply back with "no, i'd rather talk in person" (this was my test. if she said yes to this i was going in for it no matter what) she responds with "meet me at my house in 15 minutes" so i get there. we wind up talking for all of 5 minutes before making out. we're making out on a street by the way. we wound up taking a walk to talk and ended up sittign on some corner at 3 in the morning. anyways we're making out really seriously at this point, and finally we take another quick break. i wound up kissing her on and off about 9 different times for like 30 minutes. she says something about how "she doesn't know" and wants to like me that way, but doesn't. and how she's not sure what we are yet. i go it's alright, i don't need an answer now. i'll call you tomorrow. i go home. next day, i call her after shes doen with work and basically tell her im getting some ice cream, come with me. blows me off basically. a day or two goes by and i just had a talk with her. she basically told me that she wanted to save teh friendship and the only way she saw doing that was to kiss me. personally i think thats fucking bullshit, she was the one that pulled me out of the house that night and she was the one that agreed to seeing each other. that should have been fucking obvious at that point. i was upset about this at first, then i decided to say i wanna be able to talk to yuo, and say hello and just have fun. and decided to end the conversation on good terms leaving her like we're friends. my plan at this point is to be friendly with her when i see her, not call her, not text her, maybe leave facebook messages once in a while, whatever. hopefully some feelings will surface, if not, whatever. when i see her at another party i'll make a move and see what happens. that's my plan as of now. so now you know the situation, any advice on how to turn this girl into girlfriend, or atleast something? or is this just wayyyy too fucked up?