here is the thread that's in the main forum. http://forums.offtopic.com/showthread.php?t=3151731 im just having a tough time coping with this. he was a really close friend and we sorta drifted apart after our graduation in 2005...he moved to tucson. i hadnt talked to him in about 4 months. he had a good job...an engineer at raytheon. he had a new car and a motorcycle and i think even a condo. material things dont make us happy i guess. but it really seemed like a life that he always wanted. he came from a modest upbringing--his family was pretty dysfunctional...but given the circumstances of his childhood, he turned out to be a really level-headed person. i never would have imagined that he would do this--ever. like he's my first real friend who has died. even when it comes to family, like my grandmother and uncle both passed away when i was in my early teens. i'm just crushed right now.