SRS My mom just died

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  1. thepornokid

    thepornokid New Member

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    All I can say is I knew something was up. She usually calls me everyday, and picks me up every wednesday/thursday for a couple hours. I live with my dad and stepmom. I noticed she hadnt, and I just had this gut feeling something bad had happened to her. This really hit me last night when I took a test for this college thing. Went to school today, had the fucking hardest time focusing. Got called down to the office and saw my dad and stepmom and I when I made eye contact with them I knew my mom wasnt alive. Oh and just to make sure you understand, I loved my mom much more than my dad. Sometimes my mom and I talked about going to the court to get custody changed because I cant really stand my dad.

    Whats really weird is how well I'm taking this. I cried a little on the car ride home, and then once in the bathroom. The worst part about it is that I know there will be plenty more of it in the future. :(

    Well my mom died in her sleep which pleases me because it wasnt painful at all. I dont know the details yet but it probably had to do with all the medicine she had to take. She was 53 I believe, and I'm 16. Support me OT. :hs:
     
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    Stay strong man, at least she was at peace. Your two years from being able to being on your own. Just live well and be happy, I am sure that is what she would want.
     
  3. whatever

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    :hug: Death is never an easy thing to deal with.
     
  4. Jay Pheezy

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    :hug: Moving on's always tough.. But your mom would never want you to change the way you do things because she is gone. She still wants you to do everything as normally would without trouble. Accept the fact there's certain things you can't control and look at the brighter points of life and look foward to a great future that'd make your mom proud.
     
  5. Phantom Empress

    Phantom Empress mmmmmm tasty!!!

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    I lost my mother to cancer at 16. You just need to remeber the good things, all the wonderful memories you had with her. Don't be tough and not cry, if you feel it comming, let it happen, holding it in will only make you angry.

    Do you have other family members you can confide in, because I pretty much assure yuo, they are hurting for her loss too, and being her son, you can help mend each other's loss by sticking together.

    Don't lose your friends either, try and talk to them too, and keep doing things that make you happy, your mom would probably want that. :hug:

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Words over the internet aren't the best consolation, but I promise you, things will get better and it'll be easier further along, to be happy again.
     
  6. Ichabod Crane

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    You'll cry at the funeral home. When everyone else leaves and its just you and the open casket and its the last time you'll see her, you'll break down.
     
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    :hug: So sorry to hear that. Stay strong.

    I cant imagine a loss like that, even though my mom & I are usually at one another's throats.
     
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    This doesnt help. :ugh: Anyways, shes being cremated, and I dont know if there will be a funeral.

    The worst part about the whole thing is that I keep thinking how much I miss her and that I'll never see her again or hear her. Thats fucking depressing. Makes me cry everytime.
     
  9. whatever

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    :hug: The memories will always be with you.
     
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    Que the alcoholic phase of your life.
     
  11. Ichabod Crane

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    :dunno: You said it was weird, trying to share a similar experience I had. I didn't cry really until then. But I'll shut up since I am no help.
     
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    :rofl:

    I thought you were trying to make me feel bad. :hs: :o
     
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    I've been having a little here and there for a while now, and I still think it tastes like shit.
     
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    :mamoru: :hug:
     
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    i'm very sorry to hear that. but i'm glad to hear that she at least went peacefully. hang in there, buddy. you seem to be dealing with it pretty well so far. hope you keep it up.
     
  16. Blacksix

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    I am so sorry about your Mom. Just remember,she really loved you and would want you to be happy. Dont let this get you down. I know it hurts but be strong.
     
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    Well thanks everyone that has posted. I think I'll eventually get over this. Like I said the worst part is just getting used to this huge change in my life, and the missing her part.
     
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    :hug: Thanks.

    The hardest part about this whole ordeal is not being able to talk to my mom about it. That might sound weird but I usually talk to her about whatevers on my mind.
     
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    you still can?.... if i were you, i'd write my thoughts down. your mind's pry going a mile/min. right now. maybe if you expressed your thoughts, you'd feel better :(

    i am so sorry. :( losing my mother (or father) is my worse fear :wtc: ... my thoughts are with you :(
     
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    I always find it helpful to go talk to some of my relative's graves, Go out there, clean up around there, bring some flowers, and sit and tell them whats on your mind.
     
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    :hug: thats what we're here for
     
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    I agree with chica&buddies you can still talk to her, you can write to her but most of all you can speak out loud to her. You may feel a little silly at first but really it feels good to get things off off your chest.

    I have done this and I do feel like they are listening, you almost get a comforting feeling from doing it.

    Just a thought though
     
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    Kind of related, my mom had cancer but they cured it completly with kimo I think. Thanks again everyone. I'll be honest I probably wont "write" about her but I will be thinking a lot of her.
     
  24. Kytro

    Kytro I am become death, shatterer of worlds

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    Condolences, it isn't easy to lose someone you love. Treasure the memories, and grieve as you feel the need - just recall the good times.
     
  25. ebbnflo

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    I am SO SORRY for your loss. I can't even imagine... My heart goes out to you.
     

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