I am not the happiest with my 2 jobs (shit, the fact that i am working 2 jobs), I don't want to be in NJ anymore, my closest friends around me here don't even want to visit or even deal with me me, my lovelife/sexlife is non-existent, haven't gone clubbing or anything that is a lot of fun in a long time, I am miserable (and a little bit lonely), and i have started to dislike many things and people around me. Can't sleep properly cause i get nightmares and things all of the time. Hell 5 hrs. of sleep is a good night for me. But what keeps me going? Squirrels. Kinda like that White Stripes song, seeing those little fuckers bust their ass and store up nuts for the winter gives me a natural motivation to do what they are doing, and just deal with it. In my case, its saving up the money, cutting up on the fast food, getting rid of things and people who are a waste to me, and just take care of myself so i can be in the position that i want to be in come wintertime. Shit always happens with me, and that is something to be expected, but i am keeping my head up everyone.