I know I shouldn't think like this, but I take it as it comes. My list of reasons why my life currently sucks: -12000 debt student loans -6000 debt credit card -just broke up with my gf of only 2 months and I feel devistated and lost -no real friends to speak of -a dead end job which I am quitting at in two weeks -anxiety issues which continue to control and limit my life -constant depression -continuous thoughts of hopelessness -Im doing terrible in school and have no ambition to do any of my work -I've been living in the same city for 9 years and am sick of it -going for a 4 day road trip in two weeks, by myself, cause I got no friends. Not sure why I even want to go. -I usually can't go out in public or be around others without having to have a cigarette Im on medication and I have gotten therapy. Neither have done much to help my situation. The worst bit of all this is my recent break up with my girlfriend. When I was with her she gave me stability. I knew she was always there if I ever wanted to go hang out with her and talk to her. She gave me the reason to forget about all my other troubles. Now that she is no longer in my life, all my other problems are resurfacing and it is absolutely tearing me apart. Im on the brink of breaking down into tears right now. I just don't know what to do. Pray? Hope something improves in the future? I want to learn how to love myself before I love anyone else again. Im all over the place here and I know theres no advice which could help me out here. I just don't know what I need and I need some serious help from someone. I know I will get over this whole bs about my girlfriend in a few weeks, but these few weeks after a breakup always make me analyze my life and realize that not all is like it seems to me.