SRS My head is all screwed up.

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  1. Satan Stuff

    Satan Stuff New Member

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    I hate existing.
     
  2. Critter

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    I'm sorry you feel that way. Here, have a lollipop. Cherry flavored.
     
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    well you always will exist in some way, so
    take a walk
     
  4. Satan Stuff

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    I kind of like the cherry ones.
     
  5. Satan Stuff

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    Damn it, I meant to quote the other one.
     
  6. De Redacteyr

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    -:bowdown:
     
  7. Satan Stuff

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    I'm not sure. Today I don't feel as bad. But even on happy days like this I feel like I'm only waiting for the next bad one.
     
  8. Satan Stuff

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    Was my post deleted . . . ? Ill try again.
    I am not quite sure whats the matter. I feel a lot better than I did when I started this thread, but even on happy days such as these I only feel like I am waiting for the next bad one.
     
  9. kristaliah

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    emo much?

    Trying thinking positive hun. Life will get better. Do you remember when you started feeling generally shitty.. or was it always like this? Because there has to be some sort of trigger, and that's what you need to try and fix.

    Or just find someone to talk to. Either counseling or a really good friend. You won't stop feeling shitty until you understand what is causing your depression.


    /endrant.
     
  10. Goliath5.0

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    Meh.. be nice to emo peoples. They may be freaks but at least they keep to themselves when they aren't screaming for attention by slitting their wrists and borrowing my eyeliner.
     
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    Well, here in America, you have a right to hate to exist. Heck, you even have a right to end your existence! Maybe....
     
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    I thought suicide was illegal...
     
  15. GlynnisO

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    This sounds like depression... I've been there before, and it really does suck, especially paired with chronic pain.

    Try to find small things in your daily life that are good, like a dog, or a good friend, or a sunrise. Cheesy as fuck I know, but it sure helped me.

    And medications alone are NOT the answer!
     
  16. col_panic

    col_panic calm like a bomb Moderator

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    not if you succeed ...
     
  17. Pinksmartie

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    Is it really illegal though? If you attempt it I mean?
     
  18. kristaliah

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    So if you try to kill yourself and fail.. do they lock you up?



    Wait. If that happened I'm sure one would argue insanity... and then just go to a psych ward. But it'd be funny if everyone was in prison asking what they were all there for and some pussy ass emo kid said, "Trying to kill myself" :mamoru:
     
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    i would expect failed attempts to get baker acted (mental eval and counseling)
     
  20. Satan Stuff

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    I want attention because I am depressed, not the other way around. Don't confuse me with those petty types. I do find that talking about my feelings is one of the only things that makes me feel better. But I am trying to keep this a secret from people who actually know me. So I turn to the internet like a coward. I wonder if my friends can tell I'm in this condition.

    I know some other things that make me happy, yet I don't look forward to doing them. In the moments when I'm happy, I remember my sad times. But then I think, "I should just enjoy this happy moment... and forget that stuff" And it makes me feel like I'm in denial. Then I find myself doubting that I'll be happy long.

    When I'm in a depressed mood, I know that its possible ill come out of it. In fact, I know that I probably will. But that just doesn't satisfy me. I can't wait. I can't stand the fact that if I'm happy again, it will only be for a finite time. Don't tell me "thats how it is for everyone" because I know. I run it through my mind over and over. I ask myself: "what is it you want that you don't have?" and I don't know the answer. I'm going to college on a scholarship. I do well in school, and I have an easy job where I get to do what I enjoy. So what bothers me? I dont know. What the fuck.
     
  21. col_panic

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    there is a subforum called "vaginarium" - check it out
     
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    How would the Vag help him????
     
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    col_panic calm like a bomb Moderator

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    well, it's really for relationship problems, but depression will be taken more seriously there. posting that in the main forum could have mixed results
     
  24. Satan Stuff

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    I created this account for the sole purpose of posting my thread in life after OT. I only started this thread to get my account enabled. In fact it would be nice if a mod could move this thread into a more appropriate forum now that I have access to them.
     
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    done
     

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