So I found out about a month or so ago that my brother is gay, has AIDS and is dying. I can deal with the gay thing, but i can't really find a way to deal with the aids thing. I'm 19, my brother is almost 30 and has always been like my dad because my dad's never really been around. No matter where I am or what I'm doing, I just can't focus my attention on anything else lately. I cry all the time. And yes, I'm already on an antidepressant. Help me before I shoot myself in the head. Thanks.