SRS More and more I find myself thinking about suicide.

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  1. Trickypants

    Trickypants OT Supporter

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    If I actually owned a gun I'd probably already have done it. The other ways seem too hit-or-miss (pills, hanging, etc.).

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  2. iwishyouwerebeer

    iwishyouwerebeer you shut your cunt Moderator

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    Any idea where the depression stems from?

    And I've searched through your threads. You should really consider rehab for your alcohol abuse. Using depressants when depressed obviously doesn't help.
     
  3. Trickypants

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    I don't know precisely where it stems from, but have been depressed most of my life.

    I'm looking into A.A. now and found some near me. :hs:
     
  4. iwishyouwerebeer

    iwishyouwerebeer you shut your cunt Moderator

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    :hs: Are you still on a lot of medication?
     
  5. Trickypants

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    60mg of Cymbalta.

    I actually stopped it for a few weeks as I was too broke to afford it...but back on it now. :hs:
     
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  7. Vysion

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    Life has it's high's and low's. If you commit suicide when you are at a low point you wont be able to enjoy the high times.

    Changing the way you think will help you to deal with the lows and highs in a much healthier way.

    Don't be afraid to seek professional help to help you through your dark times.
     
  8. iwishyouwerebeer

    iwishyouwerebeer you shut your cunt Moderator

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    Go rent and watch "Wristcutters: A Love Story"

    Gave me a great new perspective on suicide.
     
  9. Trickypants

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    Love that movie...watched it just cuz Tom Waits was in it though. :o
     
  10. iwishyouwerebeer

    iwishyouwerebeer you shut your cunt Moderator

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    Nice, that movie really is awesome. It really made me think about suicide in a whole different way.

    I remember being at a low point and thinking for a second about killing myself...then I smacked myself in the face and it took a while, but I changed my life around.

    Have you ever sought out therapy?
     
  11. Trickypants

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    I went to a therapist for a few months a couple of years ago but didn't really make me feel any better.

    I mean, of course that's probably not really long enough but she was talking about getting me into a psychatrist (she was a psychologist) to maybe put me on some meds. I was dead set against that at the time so I kind of just quit going.
     
  12. Trickypants

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    Went to first AA meeting...just sat around and kind of hid but was nice in a way.

    Hell, even if I just meet people who know stuff to do without drinking (which I don't currently) it'd be a plus. :hs:
     
  13. iwishyouwerebeer

    iwishyouwerebeer you shut your cunt Moderator

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    :hs: Good step! :h5:
     
  14. Alexqzilla

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    Hang in there, dude
     
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    I've felt in the past I wanted to commit suicide. You know what stopped me? Knowing I'd probably fail at that too. :rofl:
     
  16. Saluki

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    Hang in there dude! Don't go off the Cymbalta without talking to a Dr. first...it can set off some REALLY NASTY depression when you do that, if you want off of it tell your Dr. and they'll usually ween you off nice and slow so that doesn't happen.

    There's plenty of things to do without drinking...I recently stopped drinking (told myself 6 months atleast) because I can't control how much I drink when I do start drinking and I've found that working out is a great thing to do, it's good for your body first off, takes my mind off of other things, and I generally feel great after doing it.

    Suicide isn't the way out, working through the depression is, whether it's through counseling or medication.
     
  17. Trickypants

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    :mamoru: I know that feeling....

    I learned going off the Cymbalta was a MAJOR bad move, I felt just totally useless and couldn't stop thinking about death almost every minute of the day. Not gonna do that again....

    I do need to start working out again, but really the motivation just hasn't been there. Also, of course, being drunk the night before really fucks up you wanting to work out the next day. Hopefully if I keep off the drinking that might change.
     
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    yeah dude, do your best to start working out again. i know for me... i feel wayyy better when i'm consistently in the gym.
     

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