i keep getting the urge to call her. i know nothing good will come of it which is why i stop myself but i miss her so damn much i don't know what to do. i try to keep myself busy with school, meeting new people, and joining clubs/organizations but seriously every time i get home the loneliness just sets in. how do i deal with this shit? i don't want to crack and call my ex. fuck her. she's treated me like shit. i don't know why i still love her after all this or why i still want her in my life. i can't explain it except by saying that i was miserable before her and when she came into my life everything was uplifted and ecstatic.. yeah, i know i shouldn't rely on someone else to make me happy, but what do you do when you can't find something that makes you happy on your own?