SRS Man do I ever need a cigarette

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  1. Xicculus

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    I'm really jonesing. Saturday nights are made for sitting on the deck, watching the boats/water, and chilling with some friends smoking etc.

    But this time I think I can do it. It's been about a week (well, 4 days but who's counting?!) but this time I really want to do it.

    Smoker (Parliaments) for the last 12 years here. Between a half pack and a pack a day. I've been thinking of getting on Chantix for about a year, just never did it. Still haven't.

    I had a really draining business conference call on Tuesday evening and when I was done, I reached for my pack and really needed one. But there were none left and I said fuck it, I am not going to buy another pack, and I've been pretty cool ever since, but right now I could really use one.

    But I don't want to feel that overwhelming feeling of failure when I light up and know that the last four days went down the drain, and after I take a few puffs I know that

    A) I'll feel like shit
    B) I'll feel great because I fucking love to smoke cigs

    and then I'll be off the wagon, once again. I'm 31, and I never want to smoke another cig.

    Oh, and I'm chewing some of that CVS quit smoking gum, and it's not helping matters much.
     
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    Oh god, you smoked Parliaments? Shit, if that was my choice, I'd have quit out of disgust.

    Personal opinion aside, if you really don't want to smoke again, then you just need to make it through the end of the second week, and you'll be fine. I don't know anybody who actually had nicotine cravings for longer than two weeks.

    I used to fast to lose weight. (I should do it again.) What I did to keep from thinking about food constantly was to remind myself that the pain in my stomach was proof that it was working. The same applies to anything else your brain thinks it needs.
     
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    I know this is going to sound ridiculous, but I've found in the past that :wackit: curbs my cravings. I don't know how or why or the (junk?) science behind it, but maybe it calms me down the same way cigs would have.

    So right now I'm all good :rofl: :x::o

    Still chewing this nasty gum though. I wonder if it really works or is just mind over matter. The nice thing about the gum is that it tastes like ass right from the start, so it cant get any worse, and it seems to last forever.

    It's such a pleasure to be able to smell my fingers and not be reviled by the stink. I'm OCD when it comes to smell (ya, I know there's an inherent contradiction in being OCD and a 12 yr smoker) but it would mean that I took a fuckton of showers all the time to get the smell away. Then I'd have another cig, rinse and repeat :o
     
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    I still have cravings. Seemingly non stop. Sometimes I think it is harder to live with than smoking, but then I come across someone who smokes and the smell is so bad that it keeps from doing it again. I smoked about a pack a day for about 8 years.
     
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    One week :x: I cannot believe how quickly it has gone by. I haven't been coughing up any of the tar/phlegm that other ppl talk about getting when they quit, but I guess everyone is different.

    I can't tell y'all how proud I am of this. I know it's 'only' a week but when you do something 10 times a day and then just stop...well, it's hammer time.

    The best feeling, aside from the fact that my fingers and breath don't stink anymore, is the feeling of self control. I don't feel like a slave to it anymore like I did before.

    I just hope I can keep it up. :x:
     
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    I never had any phlegm either. Then again, I bike a couple of times a week except in the winter, so hopefully my lungs are fairly clean.
     
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    So I've been to a casino and went out with friends to a restaurant/lounge that had an outdoor patio where a lot of people were smoking. Also went to a buddies place for a bbq where everyone except for me was smoking. And I feel great for not giving in.

    The sense of accomplishment is pure. The nicest thing about it is knowing that you can have a cig if you want, but it's not going to make your cravings go away - you're just going to want another one immediately after. But when you break that cycle, and don't crave the cig, it's very empowering.

    I know, it's only been like 10 days but damn :bigok: it feels good.
     
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    Congrats and yes, you should be proud of yourself. It's almost 10 months for me now and it's so great not to be a slave to cigarettes. It's the best thing you could ever do for yourself. I hardly ever even think of them now. Way to go!
     
  9. Mandingo12

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    i smoke off and on, mostly just when im drinking. when i feel like im getting addicted i stop for at least 2 weeks. good luck. dont drink coffee and chew on a straw/drink ice water when you get a craving.
     
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    I don't know if this is related but I've had a nasty ear infection the last two days. Fever, headache, nasty sore throat, chills, sweating, and my head feels light and heavy at the same time.

    Nicotine withdrawal? I dunno, but it would make sense, except it's been 2 weeks...
     
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    Good job :)

    I was in the hospital for 3 days and I decided not to buy any more when I got out (the nurses were bitching about my lungs). And I was all good until I got to work, where everyone smokes and I have to pay attention to things. Couldn't do it.
     
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    Two weeks, my brothers. Two weeks.

    It turns out I've had strep throat the last few days, but I finally dragged my ass to a doc and a lab and got antibiotics so now I'm feeling somewhat better.

    But damn, that was a LONG two weeks. I've made it this far, and if it can feel SO LONG then I know I can never go back. I wouldn't want to have to go through the whole process again anyway.

    One of my buddies asked me what I'm going to do the next time I get kicked in the ass at work or just in life in general and I was able to serenely answer that whatever it is I do, it wont need to involve cigs because it's such a nasty habit. I was a fucking slave for 12 years. No more.
     
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    i'm two months cold turkey the same way, just didn't buy another pack. you can do it.
     
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    i quit smoking about 3-4 months ago. anyways i started going out and would drink, i told my self one or two cigs while i was drinking was ok. i knew it wasnt but thats what i told myself. i wouldnt smoke again until i went out and got some beer in me. anyways i realized why i had stopped smoking in the first place and since then stopped drinking too( i was drinking 6-8beers a night) so ive knocked two birds with one stone.

    i started to become more atlethic also, im trying to loose my beer gut before summer gets here:hs:. so to the TS Keep it up man, you got a good and short life ahead of you. so try not to cut it even shorter by smoking.
     
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    3+ weeks now.

    I still have cravings, especially at night (like right now) but I feel I've come this far, I'm not turning back.

    I wonder, how long do the cravings go on for? When I say cravings, I don't mean I'm jonesing like I was when I first started this thread, just the kind of feeling like your hungry even though you just ate a steak - you know you're not really hungry, but you want to eat anyway. That's how I feel.

    But then I see someone lighting up and I realize how *weak* they appear to non-smokers, totally controlled by the addiction, and I pat myself on the back. That's really what keeps me going. That, and the fact that I don't smell like ash-tray anymore!!
     
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    There seems to be a trend with my body to start craving cigs after 10pm every night. I wont give in. Just odd. When I was a smoker, it was all day, not just at night... though nights were the most 'fun' because I'd be on my balcony watching the boats go by, with a drink in hand.

    Haven't been out on the balcony at night in a while, either.
     
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    I dont see myself as an addict but it would be hard not to touch one for three weeks. youre doing awesome man
     
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    me too...what is it about having to hear how cool you ex husband and his new wife and the new house they just bought, that make ya wanna smoke.
     
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    Heh, that's what my buddy was talking about when he asked me how I'd react next time I had a particularly tough conference call, or I lost a deal I was working on for a while, or whatever.

    But today is 28 days (and 2 days short of a month) and I haven't had one. My fellow droogans, I can't tell you how happy this makes me. If I can do it, anyone can. 12 years is a long time. I would smoke on my balcony, on the balcony at my office, in my car on road trips, in my car on short trips, at the beach, during intermission at the basketball game, between halves at the football game, etc etc.

    And I always wondered how I'd give all that up, wouldn't I miss it?

    The answer is a flat NO. Fuck all that noise. I see people smoking now and I feel bad for them. And I feel bad for me, for having felt all those years that I needed to rely on nicotine to somehow feel better, to think, to enjoy an after-meal moment, as a chaser to the drinks at a bar, etc. Bullshit. All bullshit. Now I enjoy feeling healthy and clean.

    Will check back in on my one month anniversary in a few :bigok:
     
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    Congrats :bigthumb:

    I, for one, have never understood the addiction. I have smoked plenty of cigarettes, sometimes to relieve stress (after stressful exams is a big one), sometimes just for a buzz, sometimes socially, etc. but I have never had a craving for a cig. When I make long drives for work I will buy a pack and smoke so I stay awake, but I will end up holding on to that pack for about 2 weeks. Weird :dunno: Any thoughts?
     
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    How old are you? What you wrote is exactly how I felt when I started smoking in college, at age 20. Sometimes for the buzz, sometimes socially, sometimes with a beer, sometimes before and after an exam, and I always told myself that I couldn't get addicted... and besides, if I did get addicted, I would just stop buying packs and wean myself off like that!

    :rolleyes: How silly I was. I'd buy the pack for social times like going to a bar or for study breaks with friends, but I'd always be left with 10-15 in my pack afterwards, and they'd be sitting on my desk in my room, where I'd smoke from time to time. Well, from time to time segued into all the time, and more than a decade later (and countless numbers of times trying to stop) I was up to between a half pack and a pack a day.

    But finally think I beat it. Today is exactly one month :bigok: It's quite amazing how your perspective changes in just a month; as I sit here writing this, I have zero desire for a cigarette, and (almost!) have a hard time even understanding the addictions and cravings. And I wasn't just a smoker... I loved smoking.
     
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    I'm 20, senior in college :rofl:. Interesting perspective.

    :bigthumb: to you.
     
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    :rofl: Bingo. I knew it!

    Don't make the same mistake I made. The power to change your behavior is far easier now than it will be in 12 years from now when you have to unlearn a lot of habits.
     
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    Question for the quitters - did you get sick as a side effect of quitting? I've been cig free for 5 weeks now and during this time I've had an ear infection, strep throat, and now an eye infection. I've been on amoxycillin and some steroid and antibiotic for my eye. I wake up every day with a raw feeling in my throat like I still haven't shaken the strep. Basically I feel great emotionally, but pretty lousy physically.
     
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    have you gained any weight since quitting?

    thats my one fear, i know someone who gained 30 pounds after he quit smoking, thats crazy

    my father quit smoking about 15 years ago (1-2 packs a day) and im not really sure if he still gets cravings or not.. he hates smokers though.

    he still says that if he had just one smoke he would get hooked on them again (which is different from your first smoke ever.. im sure all of the smokers know what im talking about)
     

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