Seems this is off-topic and all of us are usually bored out of our minds on here, I'll give you a little bit og a long read that I need some opinions on... I know hardly a damn person on here know's me, but I dont look, nor act my age and I matured very, very quickly.. so.. On with my long ass story.. When I was ~11 or so, I met this chick through my dad and the Navy.. She was ~13, we'll call her "A".. We hung out almost all the time, never really did much "sexual" or anything like that mainly cause well, I/we didnt really know better/how.. About the age of ~15, I met another chick, she was ~16 "B".. We click off, start a pretty damn good relationship.. So, when I was 17, Christmas eve, I ask "B" that big question.. Stupid? Maybe, but it felt right... She says yes.. Sweet.. Through all this, I'm still very close friends, I guess you could say "best" friends with "A".. So... We were "engaged" for about a month and a half, nothing really changed in our relationship, still strong, ETC.. 2 days before valentines day, she decides to tell me that she is joining the military and heading out.. I was "ok" with it, until I found out that she joined awhile ago and didnt bother to tell me untill 3 days before leaving.. That pissed me off.. Concerned me a little.. Then she tells me "I'm not sure if we should try and keep us going. I dont think I'm ready for this"...... So, we break the engagement off, hardly ever talk to eachother, but we are still friendly.. So, that fucks me up pretty damn good... In comes friend "A".. All of a sudden, she is extremly "interested" in me.. I guess you could say she was kinda catching me on the rebound, but I fell for it.. We go on and on for a good couple of months, mainly just having "fun".. So, 1 day, I simply ask her about a "committed" relationship.. And she practically shits on my chest.. So that puts me in a nice little stage of not giving a fuck, not doin anything, almost depression, I guess you could say.. So, I finally get the fuck up, and soldier the fuck on.. I grow my hair out, look like complete shit, not caring, drink my ass off and pretty much just do wtf I wanted.. That goes on for a couple of months.. Somehow, even with a damn mullet, beard and lookin like complete shit, I found a chick I clicked with pretty good and didnt seem to care what I looked like.. So we get a little bit serious for a few months, have some fun.. Here comes september.. I bring her lunch at work 1 saturday, we talk for a little while, eat lunch.. As I'm gettin up to leave, she says " Tuesday is my last day here".. I was confused, but said ok... "Whats the reason?".. And.. She goes... "Well, Friday I'm moving back to Kansas city".. Well.. Lets take another shit on the nice guy why dont we..? So, here comes chick "A" again..We talked during "C", but thats about it.. She fucks with me for a month or 2, then finally I say fuck it, cut the hair, clean up, blah blah blah.. Still friends with her, fuckin around with her, not expecting shit out of it.. Pretty much just become "best" friends, with alot of benefits.. So, here is where this wonderfull life fucking story I'm telling takes us too.. So, its mid november and a few friends of mine are starting up a website, XXXXX.com (dont want to cause anything by trying to "plug" our website).. So, we get some people on the website, start goin out with a couple of them... So here is where I meet chick "D".. We hang out with the "group" a few times, talk alot ETC.. So, we start hangin out 1 on 1.. About this time, Chick "A" moves alll the way across the country, so thats over with.. I can finally get that out of my life and move on.. So, we, "D" start becoming pretty close.. I literally start fallen ass over tea kettle for this woman.. So, I man up and tell her.. She seems sketchy about it, says she really isnt ready and all that and isnt lookin for a relationship.. Which is cool, I got no problem with it easing it in, seeing what happens, 1 step at a time.. All I asked was for her to keep an open mind.. So, after that little talk, we start hangin out together, almost every day.. Thats cool, Its awesome, I'm having a good time and I absolutely love hangin out with her.. So a couple weeks later, I throw that question out again, get the same response.. Which again, didnt bother me that much.. So she tells me "I dont see you as anything more then a very close friend".. Which, again, I honestly have no problem with.. So I simply ask "What is it about me?" And she says "Nothing, I just dont see it." Ok, so ladies and gentleman, this is what bothers me.. How can there not be a reason..? I mean, Ive been debating with myself weather or not I should have put her on the spot so fast, but I mean, I'm not 1 to hold back and it was killin me holdin it back.. Seems most of you dont know me, I damn near always have an answer for everything.. But I am honestly confused as fuck.. Ive never clicked with anyone this well, not my fiance, none of them and quite frankly, I honestly dont think I ever will considering I'm getting more and more pissed off at the stupid ass people in this world.. So, my question to you all is, WTF is going on...? She tells me how awesome I am, how great I am, all the time.. A few times while she was drunk, We've fooled around, kissed, touched eachother and I had to tell her "no" because I couldnt do it while she was drunk and me sober.. Now some say when someone is drunk, their true feelings come out.. I dont really believe that.. Some say that she is "scared" to do anything with me, so while drunk, she loosens up and just lets it go.. She had some money issues, she needed a car, so I fronted/loaned the cash to buy her a car, fixed some small issues for her.. Ever since then, Ive slowly noticed that we havnt been hangin out as much.. Also, she lost her job a while ago, got into a big fight with her family, so I took her away for awhile, took her out to eat, talked with her and let her stay over my house for a little while.. About 2 weeks later, my father gets laid off, I get fired on the same day.. The next day, my Car blows a battery and catches on fire.. Then, the next day, I take a shower, get out, lean over the toilet to pick up my towel and I fall through the damn upstairs floor, I guess the tub/drain has been leaking for awhile and rotted out the floor around the tub and toilet.. So I'm pretty down in the shitter that day, ask her to hang out cause I'm calm and feel like nothing can go wrong around her.. I practically have to put a damn guilt trip on her to hang out.. So some more bullshit comes up and I am honestly on the verge of packing up my shit and heading to my grandfathers cabin in Maine for awhile.. So, I ask her to come over and watch some movies with me, I'll make her dinner and talk.. She says she is "tired and doesnt feel like doing anything and is staying home"... I'm seeing the pattern here, but I dont want to believe the pattern.. She sees me as her "best friend" which I know is allready probally the biggest fucking whole I could possibly have to dig myself out of.. So WTF is you all opinions after readin my short novel....?