I just feel like I am under alot of stress right now. Started off with my gf breaking up with me. Shortly after that my grandmother passed away. But now it seems like everything else is just crashing in at once. My other grandmother is in the hospital, not doing well at all. I am trying to set things up to move to Austin next month. My ex-gf keeps messaging me and is trying to string me along as a friend and at the same time telling me she still "kind of" has feelings for me. Then I also have 3 projects due in 10 days... and to make it even worse, I will be going in for surgery on Wednesday and will be out of it for ~5 days. All of my close friends have been busy lately working 7 days a week. The only friends that are looking to hang out are my stoner friends.. and smoking 24/7 is only making all of this harder for me but at the same it gets everything off my mind and lets me relax. Don't you just wish sometimes you could temporarily freeze existance around you and get things taken care of? I was with my gf for almost 5 years and I just moved out of my parents place back in June to live by myself in an apartment... So this is my first time to be this alone. Is it any less masculine to say I need a hug?