Last 8 months of my life have been hell. My GF left she moved out of her house and changed she left me for someone who is a piece of shit. This happened about 8 months ago wrecked my life. Started doing alot of drugs cleaned my bank accounts out dropped out of college for a semester. I've shaped up I'm not going to say i'm clean but i feel like I'm getting there. I still think about my ex gf everyday she wasn't a saint but I regret alot of stuff I did. I tried everything to be with her but she up until recently when I freaked out would say ya i'm leavin the other guy cause I want to be with you then i wouldn't hear from her so she was teasing me. I've hooked up with other girls since but I'm just not happy. I miss her 24/7 she was a country girl into trucks and cars like me I'm afraid I won't find that again. Thats probably what I think about the most but the second think that bothers the hell out of me is my career. Right now I'm in college for my AA but I have a math disability that is stopping me from graduation and my school even though i've had all a's except for math might not let me pass so I'm scared about that. I don't want to be 30 working at a gas station and I'm afraid thats whats going to happen. I'm 21 and I have no idea what I want to do. My mom and dad act like I can't be in a corperation and sit at a desk and that magically i'm suppose to create my own business so there really no help if anything my dad makes it seem like I can't be at his level. I have two major fears that get to me everyday first being alone. I did so much better in my life when I had a gf. Second not finding a career path. Any advice is helpful.