It does... Some of you may have read my post a few weeks ago about breaking up with my girlfriend, issues with my son, issues with my childhood, etc. I can't remember if I mentioned it, but I lost my uncle back in March, he had a stroke, collapsed, and did some pretty serious brain damage when he hit his head, my cousin had to pull him off life support. Last week I found out my 91 year old grandmother has cancer (for the 4th time), my father is losing his health insurance/pension/disability insurance because the company he worked for was bought out by a media conglomerate and they decided to boost their profits by cutting a large portion of the benefits. My father has been fighting a losing battle with Hepatitis C for the last decade, Interferon-A (~$5K) once a week, not to mention he'll probably need a transplant within the next 5 years (if he lives that long). Imagine watching your father slowly die from a disease/chemo for a decade, after going through cancer/chemo yourself... I almost want to just disappear, to leave everything and everyone. But at the same time I love him so much, I can't do that to him. What hurts the most is that he's been there for me through all my bullshit, never judging, always giving good advise, letting me make my own mistakes if I'm too stubborn to listen... And after everything I try, I still haven't accomplished shit except to get myself deeper in crap and be a burden to him.... And this morning my 21 year old cat almost drowned in her water bowl, she's got really bad hips, and is going into kidney failure... She outlived 1 other cat, and 4 dogs..... My parents had her put to sleep when she couldn't stand up on her own, this afternoon while I was at work, we knew it was coming, just not this week. On a brighter note, last month I accepted a job in my dream field, working for a great, stable company, making three times as much as I have ever made working for someone.... In the last 12 months I've gone from not knowing where my next paycheck was coming from, working my ass off to start a business, finishing my AS degree, living with the woman of my dreams, and having my family constantly comment behind my back about how proud they are of me... To having more money than I can spend, but losing/ knowing I will soon lose everything I care about..... It wasn't my goal, I didn't set out to give up everything for this job, in fact, I never would have gotten the job if I hadn't broken up with my girlfriend and been at the right place at the right time.... Do I wish I could go back? .... If you know the devil's phone number, have him call me, I've got a soul to sell.