Sorry for the long read. Please read it though. I'm in a world right now where I just don't know where to turn.. I've been talking and been with this girl for about 6-7 months... We were in love from the start but we waited to go out. I wanted to really get to know her and become a good friend first. We loved everything about each other. We didn't hang out every single day and be so clingy but we expressed how much we loved each other a lot. We went out time to time, worked together. It was great. She had somethings she had to get off her chest the other night so I let her, I agreed with her. She said she felt like she was being controlled although I never told her she can't do anything. There was one occasion where she wanted to drink with some guys I didn't know. They were some of her old good friends but I still didn't trust them. The next morning I stupidly pushed her off the edge finally. I said I need to know if you are in love with me. She got into a conversation and explained how she can't keep doing this to me, she can't keep giving me false hope. She said she tried to fall back in love but she just couldn't. A few weeks before, her bestfriend and her boyfriend fought right in front of her and broke up. I came in right after and she grabbed me and was so scared but happy to see me. She made me look into her eyes and promise her that I won't let that happen to us. She kept repeating it. I keep my promises. A lot of her friends went to her without me making them(I would never do that.) and they told her that she is really making a mistake and kept asking her if this is what she really wants. She never replies to that question. It's a "I don't know" or silence. Her friends know me, they know I'm a really nice, good guy.(Not to sound cocky at all.) They know I love her to death and they dont understand. For some reason a month ago she said she started to say that she isn't in love anymore. She said it's not the same between us and that even if I kiss her she just doesn't feel anything anymore. I really do love this girl. I honestly believe that I will never find anyone who will compare to her, she really is the girl of my dreams and she is perfect in every way.She knows that. I asked her why she is putting herself through this. She couldnt sleep for the passed 2 nights, she's been crying she has been as sad and depressed as me but she said she can't have a relationship. She needs to be single. She doesn't want anyone else, its nothing against me but she has no feelings for me... She told me that I mean everything to her, that I'm the only one who cares for her. She has a lot of problems going on right now in her life and I've been helping her straighting it out and I've helped... She told me she loves me but she just doesn't love me more than a friend. She told me that I am truly her bestfriend if not her only friend. She has plenty of friends but thye are just... people she knows. They aren't there for her like I am. She wants me to be best friends with her! I don't think I can handle this. Some people have told me give her time, she'll realize what she has lost and she should turn... I don't think she will though... She texted me last night asking if I was awake, if I was sleeping. She just keeps trying to talk to me. I saw her at work today and she came running after me first thing. I tried to get away so I could avoid her but she walked over and said "Look I got sunburned.. that never happens!" The reason she said this is because we talked about it a couple days prior so it was just funny. She pretended like nothing was wrong at all. Her friend went with her to get something to eat later and she asked her again "Are you sure this is what you want?" Nothing but silence from her. Today I gave her back every note she ever gave me(It was a little thing we did at work or just to make each other happy and each note would say "I love you forever and ever" "No one makes me happier!" or we'd argue about who loves who more.) it was just part of our relationship... I put them in an envelope and made her bestfriend give it to her and her friend added in "I really think you're making a mistake" it's just rare to find good guys I guess I dont know... She texted me later saying to me that by doing stuff like this I'm pushing her father and farther away and that I need to stop trying to convince her because she just feels so bad and guilty. I told her that the guilt is from her, not me. I talked with her later again(on the computer, she couldn't talk on the phone) and I asked her I can try to be your friend but it will be hard and you know that. I cant just go from being with you and then being without you. I said be honest with me right now and tell me why you did this. She told me that she doesn't love me like that anymore. She can't give me false hope and she cant keep doing that to me. She told me how she tried to fall back in love with me but she couldn't do it.(I said thats because you're already in love) So I asked her a few things as a friend like "Will there ever be another us?" and she said "I don't think so". I told her that really breaks my heart into pieces and she got mad because she said I asked her that. I told her I understand but it just hurts to know that. I asked her if there was any tiny bit of love left for me in her body and she said no. She told me that I need to give up because I'm pushing her farther and farther away from her. That I just care too much. I wouldn't try so hard if I didn't make that promise. You don't fall out of love so quickly. I know her very well and I'm all she really has. Her mother was furious from what my friend said when she found this out. No one will ever care for her as much as I did and I can bet my life on that. I really did and still do love this girl very much. It hurts to know that I may never get her back. She was my deffinition of a perfect girl and it hurts so much to see it go away... OT. What do I do? Do I become friends with her? Do I act normal around her? Bestfriends? Will she come to her senses? Will she realize that what she lost was good? She always said I was the best thing to ever happen to her. I think some of the things she's said to me she didn't really mean(that she wasn't in love with me anymore). She told me before "No matter what would ever happen to us, I know it wouldn't be forever..." and I asked her about that and she doesn't know if she meant that or not to be honest. She knows I'm a really good guy, she knows I'd do anything for her but she said its because she is just not in love. All her friends told her shes dumb to be doing this but I dont know. I also have a prom to take her to in 20 days... I told her at first that I didnt want go with her but later decided.. I need to. She really is my bestfriend and I can't hate her for this. I just wish she wouldn't do this. What do you guys think? I hate to say it but I never cried this hard since I was a little kid. I'm so lost right now. I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense or is out of order... I'm just out of sleep, stressed out and going crazy. I'm just depressed over the fact that I've lost something so valuable to me. I told her that in the future if I saw her with someone else, I'd break down because that guy doesnt know what kind of treasure is holding. She said not to worry because thats not for a long time. She wants to be single. Forgot to add... I'm going through a lot of personal problems as well as her. We've been there for each other the whole time and this is what made us so close and made us really become more than boyfriend and girlfriend but also bestfriends. And when I told her that she is making a mistake as well as her friends, she replied "Its something I'll have to learn the hard way then..."