It ends tonight.

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  1. ww_Crimson

    ww_Crimson New Member

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    Let me start this off by saying I'm writing this for my own good, not to answer anyone elses questions really so if you ask a question and I ignore don't take it personally.


    After one of the best nights (dates) of my life two nights ago I'm now broken up with my girlfriend of 4 months (3 days away from it anyway). Met her over the summer and she was easily the greatest girl I've met in a couple of years, if not ever. Our relationship was weak to begin with because I knew from the get go she was still having troubles getting over her ex of nearly a year ago. I didn't let it phase me too much and kept my options open in case something came along while she collected her thoughts. We had spent the summer together having a blast, and even though she wasn't technically "my girl" we always arrived together and everyone knew her as "my girl". Fast forward a bit and after a couple months of talking we were a couple; she felt like she was ready for a relationship.

    Everything was perfect when we were together but I was always bothered by the fact that intimate contact was minimal between us. I brought it up a few times and the situation never improved. Hmm.. was going to type a lot more but I feel like I've lost motivation. Anyways.. I talked to my close girl friend about it (the one who I almost kissed at the bar a month ago for those of you who remember that thread) and she just told me to do what made me happy. I seriously thought about breaking up with her but just wasn't ready to do it. I genuinely love this girl. She posted some stupid ass blog on myspace last night and a lot of it made references to the past. Tonight was something religious about a new hope, a new faith, etc. I was on the phone with her (had just got home from a buddies house) when I read it and called her out on her odd behavior the past two days. She basically kept walking in circles on the phone saying she was overwhelmed about everything and I asked her if everything included me and she said no. I called her out because I knew if it didn't involve me she would feel comfortable talking to me about it.

    Ended up goin to her house where the past 45 minutes was spent breaking up. I told her I felt like I was too much of a friend and that our intimate contact and gone way down the past two months and I never saw it improving. She acknowledged that she wasn't being fair to me because she wasn't giving our relationship her all. I guess the breakup was kind of amicable. I'm pretty hurt right now but I guess that's how all relationships end. Someone gets hurt anyway. A few tears were exchanged but I somehow knew that this night was coming.

    I think what kills me the most is I still want to be friends with this girl because I genuinely care about her. Not like I did with the last girl I broke up with where I wanted to be friends because I thought it would be easier on her and hurt her less. This is a girl that I want to have the best things in life and hope that wherever she ends up in life, that she is happy. I told her that I cannot just be her friend at least not for a while because I care about her so much more than that.. I know that I need to cut contact for a while until the emotions die down so spare the lectures on that. Of all the girls I've known in life I think this is the first girl I've ever cried over and I think I learned a lot in this relationship. I've never felt so many emotions evoked by someone and I'm glad I got to experience that.

    Anyways.. work starts in 6 hours and I'm sure I've got another hour before I fall asleep so I guess it's time to wrap things up.

    Cliffs: Amicable breakup with girlfrien. Mostly upset because I don't want to lose her as a friend which is what our relationship turned into and I know things are bound to change which pains me. :(
     
  2. iwishyouwerebeer

    iwishyouwerebeer you shut your cunt Moderator

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    Sounds like you grew a lot during this relationship and that's great. Hopefully in a few years when you look back on it you'll feel the same way, that it was just a small stepping stone in your life :)
     
  3. Televandalist

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    sounds like it was a great experience, and you grew and learned from it... Try to get past the pain and take the lessons.
     
  4. awdboost

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    I'm in kind of the same situation as you are with the whole after break up situation.

    What kills me like you is I do want to still be friends with her right now but I know we can't at the moment. I'm not sure if me and my ex are going to stay friends or not I think that would be her decision. I want to but I don't know if we can. This is also the first girl I cried over after a breakup, so its all new to me. Hey we live we learn we move on. Never know what life has waiting for us down the line.

    I feel your pain. But hope you get thru this I know I'm trying!!
     
  5. ripcurl

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    I know how this goes. I have a super struggle with it in every relationship I get myself into. I wish I had some advice but I don't.. if you have any post event, let me know.

    Good post and best of luck.
     
  6. jonno

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    good luck with everything... you'll meet someone better
     

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