First off, I am 18, said woman is 27, and married. We met through a retail job, and hit it off, started talking all the time, and texting each other a lot. Everytime we see each other, I can't help but put on a huge smile, she always does the same as well. She talks about how her husband isn't really there for her, they don't see each other much, and rather than stay home with her when they are both off, would want to go party with people he doesn't like. She says she wished he thought like I did. She has this second job as well, and has been wanting me to go work with her there, which I ended up doing. Now I see her everyday, and it hurts like fuck dealing with this and knowing she is married. She invites me to do things with her and her friends, and soon me and her are doing something together, a memorial for her religion or something, which her husband would never do because he is a different religion than her and doesn't really support her in that way. I've never met her husband, and other than talking about his problems, and other things he has in common with me, she doesn't really mention him much. She trys to get us alone to talk to each other quite often. She is amazing and seems like the girl of my dreams... I know she likes me a lot, as a friend at least, and I would never give that up. I would also NEVER do anything romantic/sexual with her unless she admitted she was getting out of her current relationship. I am just trying to deal with the pain here, and it gets really difficult, ruins my day sometimes. I try to tell myself, 'oh she is not my type', 'remember? she is MARRIED and TWENTY SEVEN', 'Your young, youll find someone more suited for you eventually, you have plenty of time, forget about her in this respect'. I know the best option would be to distance myself from her, but I am already pretty close to her, and I will not do that. I am one of twp of her GOOD friends, besides another girl from work. I know exactly what I should do, but every time I see/talk to her, it gets more difficult. I am capable of forcing shit from my mind, but this has become incredibly difficult... Writing this out makes me feel a lot better, as I have not told anyone about my feelings for her, as most of my other friends know her, or know a friend that knows her, and it could get around and cause problems, we don't need that drama... anyway, thanks for reading, and opinion/suggestions are welcome.