So me and this girl have been rather close for basically the past year (with a month break or so). I've known her since highschool when she used to have a thing for me, but it never amounted to much. We were friends first for a little which led into more (sex. regularly). Basic things started to happen, like we were in some sort of relationship. You know, spending days on end together, sleeping over like every night....but she didn't want a relationship and couldn't handle the commitment. So we just kept doing what we were doing, while I was getting more and more attached. And to be honest, she seemed to be the same way...very affectionate. Very. Well, I guess all good things must come to some sort of end and I saw things dwindling down (Mainly with her). Eventually, after many, many talks she decided that she just wants to be friends and blah blah blah. Normally, I would just say fuck off and be done with it. This time however, it is a bit tricky, she's my best friend, and furthermore she has become one the most important person in my life. So, I really felt I had to try to at least keep this friendship (while still very much in love with her). She's told me something just doesn't feel perfect with me or something the like. But to be honest, when were together, it's hard to believe that. With how she acts and the way she looks at me. Something clicks, I just think she may be scared to admit it, because she's not the type for relationships and seems scared of commitment. I've been trying to remain friends. We still talk daily and I still have slept over her place a few times. We still hang out a decent amount, no kissing or anything like that, but we do cuddle and all the stupid crap (which seriously tears me apart). We have had several conversations where I have told her I don't know if I can do this. Because in all honesty, these feelings for her have not died down in the least. She says I am being immature about this and there is no reason we can't be friends. So I continue on... Lately, I have been finding myself being mean to her at times. Stopping her in the middle of a conversation saying "You, I really just don't feel like talking to you right now. Can we talk later?" I mean, I am a complete asshole to regular people, but I have always been sincere and nice to her. I just can't control myself, like a child who had his lollipop stolen from him and is pissed about it. Is it possible for me to get over this and be her friend? I mean, I am not going to lie, I want to be with her. I hate this feeling of being pathetic and feeling powerless when it comes to her. But I feel like I need her in my life. Sorry for the length, but I am at a loss and have no idea what to do or how to act.