Second semester of my freshman year in college and I'm feeling so bad and I don't really know why. My attitude is way too shitty and I'm constantly unhappy. I find it hard to relate with anyone and don't really see the need for bullshit relationships and bullshit pretending and bullshit selfishness. I thought things were going well with this girl I was seeing. She sorta just stopped calling, and though I'm pretty much over it I can't help but wonder what it was that made her stop. I had some rutines going but now I'm falling out of them. Even my study habits are going out the window. My 3.6 GPA is going to be hard to match. For some reason I feel so pressured, so useless, so wasteful, but I can't really seem to get myself motivated. I don't know what sort of steps I should take to start feeling better or how I can start developing a new outlook on life, but I'm really tired of crawling. I feel turned on and tuned in, but I've dropped so far out I don't even fit in with the fringe. I can't relate to anything. I can't seem to make the best of what I have which I understand as no road towards progression, but damn. I'm all out of fresh ideas. Anyone? Thanks.