SRS I'm so confused

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  1. Pogoniasis

    Pogoniasis idiot wind

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    :hs: I guess I'm at that age (18) or something, but I'm just thinking A LOT about what I want to do with my life. I have a HUGE passion for music, I seriously want to pursue it, but I'm even confused by how I want to do that. No one really takes music seriously as a career, it's always like, "so where do you want to work" and I always just reply "no idea". The truth is I don't really want to work in a business/corporation type environment. I really do not. I just don't know how to get started on music.. Where to go.

    After this year of college I'm taking at least a year out, but I don't even know what I'm going to do then. I want to go to some eastern-European country and go to a folk festival or something.. to enspire me to get up off my ass and do something. I'm just so confused.. Am I willing to risk my future and seriously pursue music or am I just going to end up studying some course at university that I have a mild interest in and be as poorly motivated as I am at the minute? The only thing that keeps me going is music.. I'm so fed up with college and all this crap I have to learn just so I can pass some bullshit exams that will endulge about 10% of what I have actually learnt. It's so fucking depressing.. I just want it to end so I can do something I actuall enjoy. I've had 7 years of this shit for fucks sake. I can't wait until it's over, but on the other hand I'm dreading it because I don't know what I'm going to do when it just STOPS and I'm left with all this free time and nothing to do.

    Is it even possible to make a living doing something you love.. Am I willing to live a sub-standard life, commodity wise, to live a life that will hopefully be otherwise fulfilling? I just don't want to end up as another guy working 40 hours a week to make ends meet and not getting a second to himself because all he can think about is bills and whatever.

    I want to lead a life that I will actually ENJOY. I just keep thinking that I'm going to end up being what I don't want to be because I don't have the balls to just dive in and take a chance.

    Thanks for reading.. :hsd:
     
  2. Pogoniasis

    Pogoniasis idiot wind

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    I'm just thinking that I'm going to take this next year out and and find a part-time job and one year turns into two years with the same job and two years to three years and then I'm stuck in a full-time job and can't get out of and suddenly my future is set. That seems to be what is happening to my sister and a couple of other people I know who are older then me and I can relate to them because I spoke with on their first year after college and they seemed to be feeling the same way as I do right now. It's scary.
     
  3. Skeletor

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    I'm the same way. I've worked in a corporate environment (albeit doing officebitch type work rather than doing some real stuff) and I can honestly say nobody there was happy, and I'm not the type to enjoy myself sitting in an office with the same people all day for half of my life. I knew this when I was 16 and I left high school early to start college and get my degree early so I could be a police officer. I'll get to have an interesting job, help people, put bad people away, and overall just feel better about myself in the sense that I'm doing something for the people of my community and my loved ones rather than just slaving away and helping nobody but myself and the company I work for. If music interested me then I'd do that instead. I totally agree that some people just aren't made for the typical 9-5, and that's it's okay to be one of them.


    However, music is a really hard business to be successful in and you have to be motivated enough to keep going, and creative enough to be able to put out new stuff. If you really think you're capable then go for it, but at this age it's common to have something you love like music, and then have a falling out of sorts and not really be into it. I strongly reccomend you stick with college at least one more year after this and then reevaluate your wishes. If you still want to take time off then go for it. I don't particularly love going to school either but I do enjoy learning and expanding my knowledge and abilities. At times when I feel like school is really getting me down with all the stuff I have to do for it, I just think of the bigger picture. Perhaps imagining myself as the terminator, saving someone's life or running into a burning building, then coming home to my white picket fence and banging my hot wife after a nice meal is cliche, but it really changes my attitude and motivates me to keep doing well in school. If you could understand that by staying in college, you'll learn a lot of skills and have more knowledge to live better and more comfortably in the future then maybe you'll be more motivated to finish school first, which IMO is the best thing you can do.

    Just something to ponder.
     
  4. Nightshade

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    you must remember that you are the only one in control of your own life ...

    you are the only one who makes your decisions ...
     
  5. Legend Zero

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    i guess you have to ask yourself how important money is to you. For godsake lets say you do not become a sucess with music, i don't know what the lowest possible musician gets paid, but can you live with that amount, and be somewhat satisfied?
    If you know the path you are on right now isn't going to gurantee happiness or anything close to it, than i assume it is worth it to maybe take a risk. You said you been going for 8 years? What degree in what major are you purseeing at your current satus?
     
  6. PuppyCat

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    Holy Dylan Batman:

    Listen kid, you only go around this world once...unfortunately this life is NOT a dress rehersal. This is what you do... Get your education...keep what you love doing going strong...once you have that piece of paper, explore the world, have a blast, do music, do what you want to do...screw everybody else's opinion of what they say you should be doing...have fun...knowing full well that if for some reason you cannot make a go of your music you have something to fall back on. Remember: It's your life and only YOU can choose what is best for you. Do festivals...get your music out there...see what happens...but do it only when you have something concrete to fall back on...having "Plan B" is always a good idea. Do you want to be 85 sitting in your rocking chair thinking "What ifs?"
    The above is the best Motherly advice I can give.
     
  7. Pogoniasis

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    I mean in the education system for 7 years. Secondary school and then college. I'm studying Geography, politics and English at college at the moment. None of which hold my interest in the slightest.
     
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    Yeah, you're right. I do need something to fall back on. Rushing in blind without a backup is a bad idea. I'll obviously see college out, hopefully with good grades and then try and find a course I like for uni next year and then when I'm done there I'll try and take up music in one way or another.
     
  9. Darketernal

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    You can become a musician if your SERIOUS about it. You don't want to be a half assed musician, you have to be commercially orientated on achieving a break-thru.

    My bro got a guitar when he was 12 played till he was 24 and then decided to play flute :hs: , thats 12 years WASTED of course he has free will and can do whateverthefuckhewants , but that way he never achieved anything. When i asked him, he said i play for myself just for fun.

    That's the worst attitude you can have when it comes to becoming a musician, you need $ to live from wether you like it or not. You can do some side jobs to fund your music, but if your going for music then you have to go for it entirelly.

    At your age 18, you have to cut thru some knots and make priorities. You simply 'cannot' do everything in this life, life is short and if you fail at least you tried to forfill your dreams, just don't do it halfassed like my bro did. When it comes to music become a achiever, not a underdog.
     
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    If I do it, I will put everything I have into it. I just hope that I can make the music I want to make and people will connect with it and support me. I'm not interested in being a commercial success. The last thing I want to have happen is to find myself making music I don't want to just so I can earn money.
     

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