See my other 29 threads if u don't know why... tonight my still-gf is hanging out with her friends for the last time before they all go to college, and since I won't be able to see her tonight I decided to stay late at work. Now I'm posting on OT and it's actually giving me some amount of social satisfaction, satisfaction that I can't really find elsewhere tonight, which makes me feel like I'm really quite pathetic at the moment. Then I console myself by rationalizing that that is exactly the kind of nagging, self-loathing doubt that is characteristic of a depressive thought process; so it must be irrational. The thing is that I can't figure out what's irrational about it. I know I've been posting like crazy in here, but any feedback would be appreciated.