its sad and frightening to realize men (and probably women too) exist who look great, are professionally successful, good personalities, and never can get a women in their lives. No matter what strategy they take, no matter who's advice they heed, it continues to not work out. I'm this guy. I've been laid countless times over the past decade, but I haven't had a woman say she wanted me around since August, 2000. For almost 8 fucking years I've had no one say they cared about me, no one to open up to, no one to know that I don't have to play a game just so I know they'll be around next weekend, and no one who loved me. I don't remember what its like to act normal, and know they'll be there again and again. that's all I want. I want someone to laugh with, play with, and someone that isn't using me as a place-holder until something better comes around. I'm tired of going into everything with a plan, but what scares me is when I don't go in with a plan. When I act normal, and it doesn't last. It hit me today. I went 2 years caring about lap times at the racetrack and other bullshit that I had complete control over, where there were no relationships involved because I had complete of the outcome with non-human objects. I just met a really cool woman, opened up and it went away. It didn't really say anything, it just blew me off. Its like when you have a job that means absolutely nothing and you don't tell them you quit, you just quit going. She just walked off, didn't say a word, because it didn't mean enough to say goodbye. at least she left her wine over here...lol.