I have grown up as a child very spoiled. My mother divorced my farther when I was at the age of 5. My mother has been through many guys and I look down at that. I don;t really like it but I can't control her. I have seen her go through thick and thin. She is always a happy person though. Something I wish I could be again. When my farther moved he met a young women when I was 8. She was very mean and bitchy. I was pretty much no longer spoilded. They were together for 3 years and they got married. To get back to my mother over time she has moved to many different places in the same area. Well getting back to my dad and his new wife that wanted kids. Him and his new wife moved out the townthat I grew up in. We moved to this borning town called Slidell. At this time I was the age of 13 and didn't have that many friends growing up eithere. About a year later she had her baby girl. Which I love dearly. That wasn't enough for her. So her and my dad had another kid.A baby boy that I love dearly and love to teach him new things. But he is a little bitch. Other then the little girl she is a very risk taking girl. Well to get back to things about my mom. She moved to Slidell and met this guy while she was in New Orleans. I didn't care for him much as the other guys she dated eithere. Well she moved to Slidell with him and I lived with my dad an his wife, soon to be ex-wife. He lost his house and lost his boat. She fights him in court all the time trying to suck as much money as she can. Even though he still is trying to make things of the best of it. He moved to an apartment. I went with my mom because I hate living in small places with other people. Well my mom got tired of her b/f and moved out to this small place behind this guys house that rents to her. He is a very nice person and treats us kindly. Well to get back to my dad he moved out the apartment and got another house. By all this time I was 18 in Junior year of High School working at McDonalds because I had nothing better to do. I had many friends but they were real assholes to me at the time. Stole stuff from me and just be straight up dicks. At the age 16 I started smoking pot and they were the ones to rip me off all the time. Well getting back to the age 18 I quit McDonalds before the beginning of Senior year. My dad buys me a Car that I had payed for half already. I don't have very many bills to pay. Well in Senior year I wanted to make money to do things. So I started selling pot. Started making alot of money and alot of friends. When I was 19 I dated a few girls that were nice but very fucked up in the head. (bi-polar) Well pretty much every girl I have dated the dating ended every 2 weeks. I have yet to date another girl and I'm 20. I did smoke pot constantly and sold it constantly to have friends. Well a to get what to I'm saying is that. Since I got caught smoking on my way home from college the cop found a gram of kindbud(potant weed) and my pipe that I was using. He arrested me and took me to jail. I sat there for 8hours over a plant matter that was no bigger the the US quarter. I got a 1500$ fine for simple poession and parphnaila. Well I had to quit smoking and at the time II was talking to a girl and she made a date the day I quit smoking. So I sat home all day thinking shes gonna call me and I'm gonna have a good time. Well nothing happens and she hasn't spoken to me since then. By the way I'm not ugly I've had a few girls tell me that I'm cute. Ever since then I have become and ignorant asshole and I don't like the person I am. Not only that I'm very loenly and want to go out and do stuff. Ever since I got caught I have no friends because I can't supply them with pot. No one calls me or wants to go out and do stuff. Since that day I quit smoking I have just sat at home complaing and whineing on Ot and being bitched at by OTers which I can understand. I try to be the nicest person I can to all the comments they leave for me to reply. But I have to rely on pot to make me a happy,nice, and calm person. It is really hard for me to meet girls. Yes I go to College and I work at a Cafe. bgut 90% of the women that come are with there family or b/f. As I walk around and bus the tables seeing these happy people eat there food. I think to myself. Why I can't be like that, Why can't I have happy and enjoyable life. It is just really hard for me to go out by myself and go look for girls. There is no where to go around here to really have any fun. They have a few bars but I don't because it makes me sick. I just want to find a decent girl that wnats to gout and have fun. I'm tired of repeating day after day. Coming home from school or waking up and staying home all day or go to work in the afternoon. I want to go out and do stuff. I have money to spend but no one to spend it with. Please do not leave any fucked up relpies because that will just make me more of an asshole that I don't want to be. the person I am now is there person I've always not wanted to be.Thank you for reading. Have a great day and hope you can help me out.