Little background: I currently have no close friends. No SO. No social life. No hobby. Whatever I enjoyed before I don't enjoy know. Everyday it's the same ol' story, wake up, go to work, go home, lie in bed 'til i fall to sleep, if i can't fall asleep i watch TV or browse the web, sleep, repeat cycle. It's been like this for just a bit over a month now. I have had several depression lapses before (First one I remember was back in sophomore year in high school). In the past I just motivate myself to get over it and get on with my life, then I fall back down again. Now I'm in my latest depression lapse and I can't motivate myself anymore. I'm tired of these lapses and I'm sick of this vicious cycle. For the first time I went to my doctor for treating this depression. Then went to a psychiatrist. Now i'm seeing a psychologist. I'm currently taking anti-depressants (Wellbutrin) and they said it'll take 4-6 weeks for it to take effect. However I've grown tired of everything at the moment (work, friends, life in general) and have had recurring thoughts of suicide. In one month I'm going to quit my job (since I really need to get out of there). If I don't feel better from the drugs I will seriously kill myself before they way I'm living right now is not actually what you would call living.