So, long story short: I have no idea what orientation I am anymore. I thought I was bi, then lesbian, then back to bi again, and now I just don't seem to be attracted to men anymore (again). I kinda sorta have a boyfriend (we've been on the rocks for a while now) and I just never want to have sex with him, I've tried to get myself into the mood but it just doesn't happen, I don't even care to watch straight porn anymore! I've been into girls since a very young age, way before I was attracted to men. I found my father's Playboy when I was 4-5 and I used to steal it and masturbate (yes I learned young). I had sex with a girl for the first time when I was 7 - I guess we learned everything from porn because I have no idea, to this day, how we knew what to do. I was only with girls from then until I was 16. I've dated a lot of girls and had a great time. It's like having a best friend and an SO, I can talk to them about anything and they seem to totally get me, being a woman and all. I've really never had a problem in a female/female relationship, it seems the problems only arise when it's with a male. At this point I'm completely confused and I don't want to give up on men completely, but at this point, I really see no reason or want to be with a man.