And I don't want to be anymore. 3/5 of the girls I've slept with were raped or molested. In fact, one of the ones that wasn't might have been but I wouldn't know because she was incapable of communicating any issues she had with herself. I'll block out the long part of this with hyphens so if you don't want to read the details, skip past the hyphens. ------------------------------------------------------- First one was in high school. She was basically date raped by her first boyfriend when she was 12ish. We dated for a year and a half at the end of highschool and when we both went to separate colleges. She was extremely clingy and would call me so often that to this day I cannot stand the sound of my phone ringing, 7ish years later. Second one was the one that to my knowledge hadn't been assaulted in some way, that I know. Unfortunately, however, if there was something bothering her she would completely clam up and couldn't say a single word. I would get a long email 2 days later about why she was upset. She could never tell me anything face to face. I walked all over her and she would sneak around and read my secret journal (which I didn't know she knew about), and write the contents down to use against me later. Very passive aggressive person. Third one hadn't been assaulted, but she talked to her ex-boyfriend constantly. I think I was down on myself for some reason and dated her and put up with the crap because I felt miserable for some stupid reason. I also said some stupid things to her that probably made the situation worse. Fourth one was really nice for the most part but she had been raped and there were issues stemming from that. She would also have episodes where she would wake up in the middle of the night (or fall asleep randomly and wake up) having forgotten the past x years of her life. This led to very interesting, frightening, and painful situations. She could also be extremely jealous of my other female friends. Fifth one lied to me initially about being 21 (she was actually 18). This wasn't a huge deal to me but as time went on more issues came up. She had been molested by family at one point. She also dated and slept with one of her highschool teachers. I dated others but I didn't have sex with them. The latest one had been raped and brutalized by an ex boyfriend (in the kick you hard enough to abort kind of way). She also had REALLY bad experiences otherwise that I will not talk about. I'm glad that I didn't sleep with her, but I still think I let it get too far by doing other things. I caught her pretty much on the verge of going full lesbian. I think the only reason she was holding back was because of her family. ------------------------------------------ Typing that out makes me feel kind of gross, actually. Anyway I want off the crazy train. I'm beginning to wonder if I might be messed up myself to be wanting to date girls like this. I'm an attractive enough guy that I don't go out of my way to dress up or anything. I have a really good talent that's useful for meeting ladies, so I don't have a problem meeting women generally. I just don't want to date extremely troubled women anymore. I want to be able to enjoy their company and not feel like I have to fix them or protect them from their past. I recently moved to an area where I know almost no-one for a better job and I want to start dating girls that don't need to go to therapy. I think sometimes I see a girl that many people will think is beautiful or pretty and I think "boring". Why is this? I've never talked to the girl before and I think she's boring? Why? What else could I possibly be doing that's making me attracted to/attracting the wrong kind of women? Can I just stop? Will I be doomed to think other girls are just boring? Is this just a perception of mine that needs to be defeated?