SRS I'd hoped that these days were behind me.

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  1. Jonny Chimpo

    Jonny Chimpo OT Supporter

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    I just made a my first Psych appointment in a decade. Anxiety and stress induced depression has finally gotten the better of me.

    I've waited too long to do it though, I'd hoped I could get through. But the pressure has been too much and I find I don't even know who I'm looking at in the mirror half the time anymore.

    I'm sick, I can't sleep and I'm so angry all the time. I just hope I can keep it together until the doctor can see me.

    Fucking thing sucks. :hs:
     
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    dude, i hear you. at least you have the balls to make an appointment. I did once and felt better just talking to someone about it.
     
  3. Jonny Chimpo

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    I know I'll feel better getting it out. Doc can't see me for another 5 weeks though. :wtc:

    This is going to be the longest 5 weeks of my life.
     
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    I've been living like that every day for the last 8 years and there is no end in sight for me. What I'm saying is that you'll live, but at the cost of your capacity for happiness.
     
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    There's no reason to live like that for a prolonged period. No reason at all.

    I wend to my internal med doc today and got a script for 1mg Ativan. Took one at lunch and I already feel 10,000% better.

    It's not a long term solution, but it certainly is providing relief. If you have an abundance of anxiety and stress, go get some help. There's no boy scout merit badge awarded for suffering.
     
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    What? That is terrible advice.

    Depression and anxiety can nearly always be greatly reduced with a little therapy and anti-depressants.
     
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    Seeking help is the first step. Now be completely honest with your doctor.
     
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    Hold up, you feel better a few hours after taking the first dose of a psychiatric drug? There's no way it's had that much of an effect already. It sounds to me like you're benefiting mostly from feeling like you're doing something about your problems and your state of mind. Nothing wrong with that of course, but see it for what it is.
     
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    Just going to see a doctor for medication cause you feel shitty is not going to fix anything. This will just get rid of the "side effects" of your depression and anxiety. You need to talk to someone about why you are depressed and that will be the only way to get yourself out of the hole you are in.
     
  10. peoplescar

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    been like this for a little while. i attribute it to multiple factors but being 23 and out of college and living in the real world takes some life adjustments.

    i'm chalking it u to growing up. I do get enxious though.
     
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    It definitely does. Maybe someday when I have kids I'll understand, but I swear parents intentionally mislead their children about what adult life is like -- and I don't just mean "big" things like moral ambiguity, certainty of death, etc., but even the day-to-day things people need to do to get by. None of it is like what I was told to expect, though fortunately I never really believed what I was told anyway. I was still glad to get the hell out of school though, I hate jumping through hoops just to show I can.
     
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    What were you told?
     
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    Ativan is a fast acting Benzodiazepine, so YES the effects occur within a very short period of taking a dose. However Benzos are not for long term treatment. I have a psychiatrist appointment already booked for a couple weeks from now and that will lead to the longer term meds for chronic depression and anxiety as well as a referral to a counseling appt for talk therapy.

    I'm VERY well versed in how this works, unfortunately.
     
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    I know this, that's why I've not stopped trying to fix this with a single internist visit and one prescription.

    I expect this to take some time and multiple types of treatment to fix.
     
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    I'm pretty sure I'm going to need to see a psychiatrist one day.
     
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    The psych appt can't get here fast enough.

    fuck. :wtc:
     
  17. tan koi

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    Smart move... I wish I'd have started sooner.

    Good luck bud :x:
     

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