Talk some fucking sense into me. I want to go back to an Overeaters anonymous meeting, but I am being a puss and putting it off. I am not in any way emphatically connected with myself, and I am starting to loathe myself. The scary thing is that I have a meal plan that I have only broken once in its entirety, and it has been over a month now, and I STILL am dragging my feet and suffering from meal to meal at times. I just can not stop thinking about 'XYZMEAL" I am going to eat in exactly XYZ minutes. Its fucking INSANE.