I'm tired of being a fuckup. I've never even tried to quit before... I just told myself I could control it so there was no need to quit. Yeah thats not true at all. I have a huge problem, and its only made worse because my use has been to hide other emotional issues. I am getting rid of all my "buddies", and so far that is working out. If I can just keep myself from answering the phone... well thats step one. I found a anon near my house and I am going tonight after work. I'm seeing a shrink tomorrow, hopefully that will help too. I just want to be able to be happy without the aid of drugs.