I turned 21 in May, and have been drinking socially since I was about 15. Since I couldn't buy it before I was 21, I never had a problem. However, since May I have spent about 75% of my summer job income on alcohol and alcohol related activities. Since I turned 21 I have been much more social, probably as a result of the social lubricant known as beer. However, it has come at the cost of money and health. I run a mile a day approximately 3 to 4 times a week, but my weight has stabilized at 175 pounds because of all the shit I'm consuming. I guess I had this notion that being an alcoholic meant you sat at home and drank 3 or 4 40's a night and passed out watching television. I rarely get drunk by myself, but going out to parties/clubs/bars is bad enough. This post is more of a self realization than anything. If the only thing bonding me with people is alcohol, how much substance can our relationship really have?! Plus, my family has a few alcoholics already. There is a huge grad party tomorrow night, and I've decided that tomorrow will be a test. I'm going to go, not drink a single drop of alcohol, and just observe people. It should be a sobering experience.