Backstory: I was diagnosed with OCD when I was really young. I wont really go into details of it, but I always had to be constantly doing something with my hands. Rubiks Cube, Draw, Write, you name it. I was raised Catholic, was told from an early age "Idle hands are the Devil's hands" and next thing I know, at age 8, I was so fearful of God striking me down, that I was afraid to sleep unless I my hands were clean, and I was doing something consistently. Eventually, I was recommended to start playing a musical instrument. I showed some interest in trumpet (and later on guitar) and started playing in band. Before I knew it, the compulsive urges lessened, and by the time I got to middle school, I was leading a relatively normal life. Fast forward to now: I moved out about 2 years ago to go to school, I am a senior, getting my bachelor's degree in music and have successfully channeled the bulk of my OCD leanings into playing/practicing music. I still have random "flare-ups" of compulsiveness, especially if I am exhausted, have had a shitty day etc. Mostly, I tend to just clean my apt till it's spotless and I feel much better. However, in probably the past year, paranoia has really started to take a hold of my life. At first I found myself becoming a total hypochondriac. Obsessively washing my hands. Making sure that I washed my cat's paws after he does his business in the litter box. And making sure that I washed EVERYTHING in my kitchen after handling raw meat. Then, the paranoia got worse and worse. I discontinued pirating movies and music because I feared the MPAA and RIAA was going to sue me into bankruptcy. I would avoid having sex with my girlfriend because of fear of getting her pregnant (even though she is on the pill). I could list a million other things, but it's gotten bad enough on certain days that if someone posts a jailbait photo in a thread that isn't a specifically designated jailbait thread (Like inspirational pictures threads) I nearly have a panic attack and fear that the cops will throw me in prison for 10 years. I don't smoke weed, I have led a terribly uninteresting life. I feel like I've done the most normal shit any 24 year old has done in his/her lifetime. I follow the rules, pay my taxes and don't break the law. But, I constantly live in fear that something will happen that will completely destroy my life. Thanks for listening Any suggestions are welcome to how I can get myself out of this.