SRS I seriously thought about committing suicide for the past 3 days! :wtc:

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  1. SovietRussia

    SovietRussia What? You pooped in the refrigerator? OT Supporter

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    This was the very first time i had seriously considered suicide as an option. i even started thinking about how i would go about doing it.

    • i got a ticket saturday morning (by no fault of my own, but my stupid brother, yet we both were WAY drunk, and doing stupid things).
    • i have a shitty job cleaning toilets, while putting myself through school, making my life quite hectic during the week.
    • im basically in love with this girl, who i had messed around with before, and i (and my best friend) are friends with. i dont know what she is thinking and dont really want to alienate her and i if i try and make a move on her. so i dont know what to do.
    • there must be more, but i cant think of it right now.
    i guess i dont really know what i want from you, just wanted to get it off my chest i guess. i know i should be happy to even have a job, but it sucks, and i work with this old ass guy that moves WAY too slow. i suppose most important to me to get advice about would be the girl. :hsd:
     
  2. Pringles

    Pringles New Member

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    well Ill just through a few things down and if you think about them seriously then you shouldnt have anything to worry about.

    Life is what you make of it

    and

    as lame as it sounds Suicide is a permanent solution to a temperary problem.

    REMEMBER THERE WILL ALWAYS AND I MEAN ALWAYS be better days that lie ahead. Times get hard sometimes, but THERE WILL ALWAYS ALWAYS BE better days.
     
  3. Ded Guy Walkin

    Ded Guy Walkin New Member

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    Not to sound like an ass, but i've been in way worse binds than you, and suicide never crossed my mind. just think of all the kickass moments you'll miss out on if you do check out. Give your life some meaning, stick around a bit longer, and at least leave this world a bit better than you found it.
     
  4. Darketernal

    Darketernal Watch: Aria The Origination =)

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    (Ded Guy unless you know what this guy has personally been thru i would refrain from saying things that your life is much worse, because even if so it doesn't mean this persons situation should be thrown into the wind, there's always some ethiopian in the world who has it worse then you , that doesn't automatically mean this person doesn't deserve attention :uh: )

    Anyway read this Near-death experience of someone who commited suicide.

    http://www.near-death.com/experiences/suicide04.html


    and then this

    http://www.aleroy.com/Abetway.htm

    You have to understand that throwing in the towel is the 'worst' thing you can do. Because no matter how deep your soul has fallen there is ALWAYS a way out. I want you to make an appointment with your shrink. You seriously need help.

    This book saved me from depression and suicide.

    http://home.quicknet.nl/qn/prive/kes/cycle.pdf

    You could always try another job, and stopping hurting yourself and other people's feelings, and start loving them and helping them out,bringing some happyness back into your life and that of others.
     
  5. PuppyCat

    PuppyCat O.T. Mom

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    :nono: I think you are just being plain silly. Doing the final check out is not the answer, especially at your age. Cleaning toilets? Done that...worked as a Chambermaid when I was travelling around in Europe. At least you are working and not depending on welfare or some other handout and for that I applaud you. You are putting yourself through school...well, I perdonally think it is wonderful and gutsy that you are doing so...shows you have ambition and are not too lazy to work, again, you are not relying on handouts. You are so much stronger than you think. Screwed up about a girl? Hmm...and you do not know where you stand? Well Holy Doodle Batman, get off your keester, summon up your courage and talk with her. Just because you love her, does not mean she can read your mind, or you can read hers. Life may seem in the toilet right now (no pun intended) but, and this is the big but, it does get better. It can't always be ice cream.
    Go and talk with the girl...let us know what she says and we'll take it from there.
    Oh, and keep up with your studies.
    ~Mom~:)
     
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  6. kitty

    kitty Uppity ass cat OT Supporter

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  7. SovietRussia

    SovietRussia What? You pooped in the refrigerator? OT Supporter

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    thanks for the support all. although i was seriously considering suicide (more than ever before) i dont think i would ever do it...because i DO have alot to live for (e.g. my wonderful son), and i know there are more "kick ass" moments that lie ahead for me. at times it gets hard to see that, when i am stuck in such a rut, and have hardly any time for myself or my son. Also, yes kitty, it does get pretty lonely, and the toughest part is, just hooking up with some random from the bar, wouldnt help i dont think. i just cant wait to get done with school, get a REAL job, and find myself a good girl to settle down with, because sometimes, i still act like im 17, and i will be 25 in a few months. :ugh:
     
  8. Broken5hift

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    life sucks, thats why we have alchohol and xbox
     
  9. Create

    Create :free at last:

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    There's places where it's appropriate to be an insensitive fucktard. The Asylum is not one of them.
     
  10. Broken5hift

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    he seems to of resolved his problem and said himself he would never actually be able to commit suicide. my bad for the slight humor :ugh:
     
  11. AmCo

    AmCo Haters goin' Hate

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    Not worth it.
     
  12. SovietRussia

    SovietRussia What? You pooped in the refrigerator? OT Supporter

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    meh. i drink, and not like every day, but most every weekend, which also gets me into trouble. note above where i got a ticket because my brother did something stupid whilst we were drunk.
     
  13. ebbnflo

    ebbnflo REAL- LAOT Hermit

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    What she said. :):hug:
     
  14. KOedX

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    These hard times just build character. Someday when your son is having some emotional problems you will be the one he can look to because you had the same problems. And the job... it's just a job. It might be your reality now but thats why your going to college. You are taking upon yourself to build a better future. More power to you brother.. Life is a marathon, not a dash so dont throw in towel on the second mile
     
  15. civicmon

    civicmon got all my game from the streets of california.

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    dude think about it like this..

    all your problems are solvable! you don't have anything that can't be fixed.

    job sucks? find a new one.... ride it out and get through school. getting through college is priority #1.

    Girl problems? fuck them.. let her make up her mind and ignore her if you don't like the results?

    ticket for being drunk? not the end of the world..

    trust me dude, these aren't huge problems worth killing yourself over.

    you easily, easily have it better than... 4bln people on this planet.
     
  16. coma

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    I hope that you realize that's an incredible and most precious gift.
     
  17. SpicyMcVoodoo

    SpicyMcVoodoo New Member

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    I know you mean well, but putting this fire and brimstone bullshit into someone's head when he's already mentally and emotionally vulnerable is irresponsible.

    You believe in all sorts of superstitious mumbo jumbo, and that apparently gives you a sense of meaning and stability in your life. Great. But realize that shit can also literally drive people insane with guilt, feelings of inadequacy and paranoia.

    Personally, I think religion of the type your preaching is psychologically harmful, and it doesn't take a PhD to understand why-- you're telling people that in their present state they are disappointing God and that they'll likely spend eternity suffering unless they strive toward some impossible ideal. Is that what a suicidal person needs to hear???!!!
     
  18. Jadix

    Jadix The Nice Guy

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    I agree with SpicyMcVoodoo. Sounds to me like you're (darketernal) just plugging you're religion here. ANYWAYS...

    wait.
    not "ANYWAYS"

    Darketernal? Sounds a lot like the experience described by the person who wrote the story in your near-death.com link. Are you seriously PLUGGING yourself when someone is asking for help because of suicidal thoughts? Disgusting!

    -------------------------------------------------------

    Johnec4- Haha cleaning toilets does sound like a shitty job (no pun intended). But thats what you have to do...just laugh about it. Or at least know that one day you will be...when you have your family, your beautiful wife, you're own home. And then when you have all that, it is likely you'll have a job that you're still not the happiest with.

    My point is, no matter where you are in life, there are good things and bad things you have to deal with. You're young now, and you're single. You have a son who looks up to you, and couldn't live without you, and loves you more than anybody else in the world. Think about what you do have when it feels like theres nothing. Concentrate on what you have, and start making small goals which you can build upon, and gain confidence from.

    Another thing you have is a girl to keep in your mind. A girl you love. If you cant find another job, then start making goals that will get you this girl. You only live once, so take a risk. I know its much easier to say than to do...but if you're thinking about suicide then you might as well try some other options first.
     
  19. Ded Guy Walkin

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    I've been arrested, worked through several bouts of depression, alchohol abuse, and social issues. I had to work a pair of jobs to pay off the legal bills incurred from the arrest. I've also been unemployed long enough to put my credit rating in the toilet, but that was years ago. I managed to crawl out of it (with the help of my friends of course, cheers guys!), and now I am slated to graduate in May. Thankfully, I was far from actual Rock Bottom (in the sense that I wasnt about to push drugs to pay rent, etc), but it wasnt easy. Everyone gets into a blue funk, but suicide is a crap solution, especially if you have a son! Things will look up pretty soon, you'll look back with pride at how far you've made it. Good luck, and get that degree!
     

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