We've been together for about 3 years. Well, close to 10 months ago, I had a "fondle fest" with her friend. That was the extent of it. It was all of 2 minutes. After it was over, I realized I had screwed up big time and had no clue as to what to do. When I saw the friend, we never talked about it or even thought about it anymore. Well, time went on and I asked her to marry me and she said, yes. The following week we went to vacation to St. Thomas and had a great time. This was in Dec. Well, back home, everything perfect. We started looking at homes. We found one and was going to close in about a week. By this time it's March. I get this call from her telling me to get my shit and go..I'm like WTF is going on..Well, the friend decided to tell her. I ended up moving out, house dreams gone, marriage off. At this point I am fighting to recover what we had. We were perfect..Never any fights, if we did it was over DUMB stuff. Well, I asked her who she's told about us because I am curious as to know who knows our marriage is off. Se told me she talks to her boss(married man) about it. He was recently married and she wanted to get a guys thoughts on what I did. Over the last month, I have bought more flowers, wrote more poems, and done all I could think of to get her back. She'd tell me she wanted/needed atleast 2 weeks of no contact with me to see if she could regain her trust. Each time we'd try it, one of us would call the other. So it was like we'd be together, but if I wanted to stay or I asked her the wrong relationship question, she'd remind me of the break. Well, I started to get suspicious. I got her phone bill and saw she was talking to her boss more than she was me. Damn near double within a month. Sometimes at like 2am..Sometimes up to 70+ minutes at a time. This set me off. I confronted her on it and she told me after talking to him, she got attracted to him. They each told eachother if they were not in the situation they were, they could end up together. So I instantly asked had she slept with him. She told me NO, it's all been phone talk. I asked how could she tell me she needed space from me to re-evaluate our relationship with US, but end up falling for a married man that is sneaking to call her. He has to be calling when his wife is sleeping or not around. She could not answer it. I asked her to stop talking to him and she told me she didnt think she could do it. I asked her WTF was she thinking. If she saw herself getting feeling for a man she could do NOTHING with but fuck him, why wouldn't she walk away. She's smarter than that. Anyway, lastnight we had "the talk" and she said she wanted to be by herself right now. She can't get over what I did to her friend and she could not see herself giving us another try if she has doubts. . She told me she was going to tell him to stop calling effective today, just as we agreed to not talk for a while. This whole thing has made me totally different. I snap instantly on people and I'm not happy anymore. There are things I left out because this would be a 2 page thread, if I gave all details, but you get this gist...I'm so lost w/out her.