Cliffs: Still in love with Ex BF in California. Live in Missouri with Terminally Ill mother and depressed father. Went to see him. He asked to be engaged if even for a long term. Long distance relationship, still don't have an answer for him. Staying with my mother until she passes away. Moving back is not an option Full Story When I was 17 I just took off out of the blue and lived in California for a year. I was on and off with an amazing guy from my very first day in California. It was by chance that he was related to my room-mate that I met him the very first day I was there. We always had unstoppable love and lust for each other, just never enough trust. Neither of us were ready to settle down but we relied on each other for emotional support no matter what. Exactly a year to the day, I got a call from my family telling me that things have really turned worse for my mother. (Suffering the end stages of Hepatitis C, Full liver failure, Maybe another 2 years if shes lucky.) Her and my father really needed help back home with everyone else having moved out. (Im the baby of the family) I felt obligated to go back and stay with my mother and father who have always been the most amazing. It was never their fault I left. Instantly I knew I had to pick up and go. My ex bf and I were in an off stage, but I knew instantly when I told him I was leaving it crushed him, he was unable to speak to me, and I ended up having to leave without seeing him one last time. Now that I've come back to Missouri, 1600 miles away, he returned my phone calls and insists that he realizes now since I've been away for so long that he, "can't live without me" and that he loves me, and I know that I love him. We talk every night and we have no secrets between us. I went to go see him a week ago and it was possibly the best time in my entire life, which has still been incredibly short. The night I was to leave he took me on the most romantic date he knew how and asked me to marry him. He did of course know I was leaving, but he wanted me to wear the ring no matter what and know who I was coming home to. It makes my heart race. I possibly wont see him for another year, and I feel like I need him now more than ever in an upsetting time in my life. I don't want to set my hopes so high on a situation and then go back in 2 years and find that everything has changed. I'm over analyzing the situation way too much possibly, but I care strongly about my path ahead and this will greatly influence my life from here out based upon my decision.