From highschool till the present i have been a very shy and lazy person. During highschool i was able to make only a few friends and usually i would stay home because i didnt have many friends. Usually the main thing i did was play sports with the few friends i had and occasionaly go out and watch a movie. I am able to talk to people that i dont know but for some reason i cant ever get close enough to where i become friends with them. I have about 6 friends that i see throughout the week but i am close to only one. He is the only person i can share everything with but there is still limit to what i can talk to him about. I want to meet more people and share things and have fun and enjoy their company but for some reason i keep failing at it. i feel very lonely eventhough for the past two months i have been out with friends and people and i have barely been home. again most of the people i hang out with i dont feel comfortable with. I get worried about what i am going to say when we are in a conversation and it sucks that i just cant be happy. My self esteem is really low and i really want to work on gaining more self confidence and becoming more comfortable with myself and around people. I have gotten some books on the subject and they have helped but its a struggle everyday to keep my mind in a good and happy state.