the first part of that title is reasonable, the second.. not so reasonable. agree? it's funny cause i realise how wrong it is on so many levels, yet i can't seem to shake these feelings. part of me is telling me to forget about it, cause i can't be a good friend if i have feelings for her. its not fair to her, or me, or her boyfriend. but the other part, well... lets just say that i'm totally caught up on this girl. we met at work about a year and a half ago, she was real cool. i felt really comfortable around her and she made me feel great, lots of fun.. the usual. as we got to know each other better i had started to grow a liking for her, not quite as strong as it is right now, but just feelin real good about the whole situation. a little later i found out she had a boyfriend of a year, and that they LIVED together. when i say that last sentence out loud to myself i think how WRONG it is, that its ridiculous. there are some details i won't get into (for length sake) about her and her relationship and how she ended up living with him that keep me thinking i may eventually have a chance at some romance and living the fantasy??, but i just can't believe that its happening to me. i mean, i always thought "wow, what a bastard.. i could never do that" when i heard similar stories from other friends, or even saw in movies. anyways, after that i was maybe a little saddened by finding out, but i got over it. however, we became friends and started hanging out. a few months ago those feelings from when i first met her resurfaced, and now i'm stuck in a rut. i don't really know what to do with myself. i just felt i needed to get it out somewhere cause all the friends i'd talk to about things like these know her... and that could cause some awkwardness, heh. maybe tell me what you guys think about the sitation? maybe its something to occupy my mind with... fill the void, i don't know. i do know however, that its buggin me more and more as time goes by. when i think about calling her these days i start to feel like a jerk and stop myself.