It seems like I always have these wonderful ideas, but I never have the follow through to make them happen. I have several issues, feel free to diagnose and advice on any of them if you wish. The one thing I did finish was college, but I didn't learn as much as I would have liked to, and didn't enjoy my major (statistics). It was a bail-out after a failed attempt at computer engineering. Now I don't have enough education to get a computer job, but I don't really want a statistics job (and they are much more rare here in the Silicon Valley). I had all these plans of calling up old friends, and working out everyday. I've worked out once, and haven't called any of my old friends. All I do is sleep when I get the chance, apply for jobs by email, or spend the last of my money to travel away from this shitty town I live in. I thought I'd have the motivation to teach myself new computers skills, but I just don't seem to care anymore. I can barely bring myself to read my book 30 min a night. I can't stop smoking cigarettes, and I'm just getting sicker by the moment. My lungs hurt, my throat hurts and I have general chest pain every morning. I smoke because I'm bored, and I'm too lazy to make food, and I'm not working out, I can't stop the cycle. I'm lonely, I have friends, and they are great, but they don't always have time for me, since they have school/work. I'd like a girlfriend, but I have little or no money, since I'm in current need of a job. The only place I meet any girls is through a few friends of mine, and they are usually beat and mentally unstable. I don't party anymore, and I'm not about to start again, that only leads to trouble for me. Oh, and I almost forgot, I really miss college. I miss having a ton of young people around me, and a bunch of cute girls. I miss seeing people I know, and asking them how they are doing. Now I have to drive to get anywhere, and I miss the beautiful weather of Santa Barbara also. If you were caring enough to read all that, and you have advice, or you can just want to call me a whining idiot, do it. Any suggestions would be appreciated, I'm really not doing anything all day, and rarely wake up before noon. That is all, thank you.