I haven't talked to my father in about a year - haven't said one word to him other than a few arguments and fights that he has provoked. I was wrong for feeding into it but being a typical stubborn person, I had no choice but to do so. Anyway, the fights were bad and one was actually physical and were started with him saying something stupid to me. I tried to ignore it everytime but he would say things that he knew would bother me. About two years ago when I was still at home, I woke up and heard someone laughing or crying. I didn't know what it was until I got out of my room and went into the bathroom. He was there crying, cutting his wrist...something that burns me to this day. He claims I saved his life but all I did was tak the x-acto knife from him and packaged him up and made sure he was ok. We sat and talked for a few hours until my mother got home and we took him to the hospital. Things were fine until a few months after. I haven't said a word to him in a while...(again other than the fights). I am an only child, 22 and have a good paying business where I make enough to support myself. Doesn't any of this bother him? He seems like he doesn't care that he "lost" his only son. I refuse to talk to him and only talk to my mom. My mom and I were tight until he came back in the picture, and everytime he and I argue, she sides with him... If I see him in the street I don't look at him. I know he doesn't like me, and like and love are two different things, but it seems like he doesn't love me either. It bothers me to a point but I tried reconciling with him a number of times and we just can't get along. It doesn't seem like it bothers him. I was always the type to get made fun of and picked on, always passive and weak until a year or two back. What strengthened me was seeing him trying to commit suicide - it motivated me to go to the gym and work out and better myself. I know he is miserable and unhappy, but it seems like he doesn't care. Does anyone else have this problem? Sorry for the long post.