I don't really know why, I feel uneasy constantly. It seems like work, women, car, money, and my living sittuations are constantly negative. Even when I was just at the grocery store just now, I thought, "wow, I really don't want to be here right now." I don't mean "here" as in the grocery store, I mean this life. I don't really like my day to daily grind. I don't like how I'm only a contract hire, my roommates are pigs and eat all my food, my miata still doesn't have a motor for the turbo swap, I don't have any friends to speak to, I don't even know what a woman is anymore, I want to take another job opening, but what if I don't like it and want my old job back while I also don't want to leave my current employer because they're be screwed without me, people don't pick up their weight in the gym, I don't want to buy a bunch of Xmas gifts next month, I don't want to deal with the holiday stress of entertaining my sister's family network, my mother/stepfather's network, and my father's family network. I just want everyone to leave me alone and not talk to me so I can live at a race track and have just enough money for food, track time, tires, and brakes. I don't know why I posted this, but I assume this is where people tell me I'm depressed or something.