i think i made a post about this before but i don't remember. i was diagnosed with add as a child and i didn't find out about it until last year. i've been taking meds for it for a few months now. although not everyday. quite frankly I really hate myself for this right now. I don't think its fair. Why can't i be fucking normal? why do i always have to fuck up everything?!!! i try so hard to do the right thing, and i end up fucking shit up anyway. I always feel like i'm misunderstood because apparently i do and say things that come off completely different than what i had intended. I come off as being lazy and not giving a fuck when i honestly feel like i try my best. i've noticed i have a huge problem with managing time properly. Even though i know i have to be somewhere at a certain time and i try my best to make it, I manage to get there LATE. I try to be punctual but no matter what i fucking do, i always end up LATE. I've missed a shit load of classes (i'm a college student) because of this and now i just made my girlfriend blow a job interview because i offered to take her, and we got there LATE. I picked her up too late because i ended up leaving my house at the time i should have picked her up. why can't this shit just fucking go away. I don't intentionally do this, it's not like i'm sitting on my ass going "ok i'm gunna get there late on purpose, i don't give a fuck about anything" although i've been told my whole life i'm very intelligent, i don't feel that way. i've been in college for 3 years. I'm a pre-med student. I should have taken the MCAT already. And i'm stuck taking intro bio. AGAIN. at this rate, i'm probably never going to graduate. I also feel like i'm very socially retarded. I was watching "forest gump" the other day and i could identify with him. I've fucked up every relationship i've had because i'm fucking stupid and irrational. Not only girlfriends, but friends and family as well. My intentions aren't bad, The people who really know me, know that i don't try to fuck people over i don't try to fuck things up. But sometimes my actions come off differently i guess. I'm seeing a therapist now to help me handle all the symptoms but i just feel like its not fair. I feel like i don't deserve to be with anybody, like i don't deserve to be happy. What the fuck did I do?