I have had this many times before, so it is nothing new to me. Tues is my final day at my job, and Im really scared...really worried that I may go unemployed for the next few months. Ive always hated job hunting but then when I look at it from the other side, Im also very tired of the kind of work I do. Its depressing and boring and very uninteresting...but I know there are good things that come out of it with me working F/T right now and that is bringing money in. Making good use of my time. When I went unemployed I would just stay at home all day and work out, be on the computer, watch tv, whatever. That was not beneficial at all. Family would always ask "so find a job yet?" Well ever since i have been working, its been nice hearing them talk about me, on how they are happy im working and doing something with my life. Well the last 6 months ever since ive been working this job I have had a lot more social interaction with people, even though I still suffer with major self confidence issues which really limit my ability to show everyone what Im all about and be myself for the world to see. I guess this is what is the most depressing, waking up every morning and not able to be yourself, be normal. Right now, I feel so parted from the real world, because I have no friends, I have nobody to hang out with. Why do you think Im home alone right now on a beautiful Mothers day sunday? I know in a way I have to leave this job and move onto bigger and better things. But im leaving for all the wrong reasons. I know the likeliness of finding a job, this slack and yet well paying, with such benefits is slim to none. But on the other hand, Im desperately anxiously looking forward to the time off and break from all this stress that I wake up with every morning.