SRS I have a drinking problem

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  1. Master Splinter

    Master Splinter OT Supporter

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    Well it finally hit me tonight, I've definitely been in denial about it for a while now but my 22nd birthday was last week and I went a little overboard with the drinking, didn't hurt myself or anyone else but my friends were good enough to host a party for me anyway I damaged some property (which I'm already set to pay for). But I am just beyond embarrassed about my behavior.

    I still just can't believe it though and don't know who I can talk to about this, I guess AA would be a logical place to start but I don't know I just don't feel like AA is for me, so for the time being just venting about it here sounds like a good start.

    I just feel lost right now though, I feel sick to my stomach because I now see what others have been telling me for a while which is that I drink too much, I might need help. I now realize that I do.

    I don't necessarily want to quit drinking but I need to get this problem under control and I'm not sure if that's even possible, for all I know I'll always be this way. My problem isn't so much wanting to drink all the time but when I do drink I just go way overboard, I've drank myself to blacking out multiple times, last year I even missed two months of work after falling down stairs and breaking my ankle.

    Anyone who has gone through this before what am I looking at? Will I need to give up alcohol for good or is it possible through help to just get a problem like this under control to where I'll be able to go to a party and drink at a moderate pace instead of singlehandedly trying to drain a keg as quick as possible.

    I enjoy drinking, I like the feeling of having a buzz but I can't stop myself once I get to that point I just keep going and going and then wake up the next day with no recollection of what happened for periods of time.
     
  2. Nhubie

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    Next time when you go out, drink one or two drink only. Pace yourself, don't take shots. Beer/mix drink=30 minutes. If you get done early get a water. The only problem is if your friends are heavy drinker they might give you shit, but it does not sound like they are.
     
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    why dont you think AA is a place for you? Have you ever been to a meeting or talked to someone who goes?
     
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    sorry i didn't finish reading your entire post

    just give AA a try, it will only benefit you, not hurt you
     
  6. mikeyo1

    mikeyo1 I'm gonna get my Eagle on, meet me at the star

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    I'm exactly where you are right now. I've admitted the problem and now trying to deal. Similar to you, I don't want to have to give up the occasional glass of wine with dinner or beer at a ball game, but I have realized that like you, once I got the buzz....I'll just keep going until I wake up the next morning with no idea of how I got home (or what I did).

    I don't quite know how to deal with this either. At this point, I am just taking it one day at a time and not drinking at all. Hopefully, down the road, I'll feel comfortable having A glass of wine or A beer, but for now, I'd rather not take the change that the one drink will turn into 20.

    I wish you all the luck. Going to a bar with friends and ordering a water is tough, but waking up bruised up and not knowing why is a hell of a lot tougher.
     
  7. Master Splinter

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    Honestly it's likely a good place, just that I guess going to a meeting is taking the admission one step further, need to do it though.

    Yeah I don't think my friends would give me shit about it, I definitely need to cut back so I think they'd understand, I'm just worried I'll get out start having a good time and say fuck it 1 or 2, I'm getting drunk.

    There are a couple near but they're about an hour away, busy work schedule this week so shouldn't have time to drink much anyway so I'll have to check into it when I get a few days off.

    Yeah I don't know why I feel like I feel about going to an AA meeting, like I said earlier guess that's just the last major step to admitting my problem.

    That is EXACTLY where I am, I definitely still want to drink but once I get started some nights I just don't feel like drinking and I can stop easily, but the majority of the time once I get going there's no stopping me, I drink to hit a nice buzz but once I do I don't stop. I can't count how many times I've just blacked out with no recollection of what happened that night, how I got home, etc.

    Good luck to you as well, it definitely isn't going to be easy. I think I'm just going to try and quit drinking for a while, just avoid going out with friends, then after I've stopped for a while try and go out and have just a couple drinks.
     
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    Think about the potential consequences that can happen to you when you get drunk.

    You need to be self-conscious of your actions

    Another thing you should consider is to ask your family or g/f to support you on this.

    Support is the most important thing on the road to recovery.

    Good luck.
     
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    why not go to a meeting? No one will bother you, its not like they lock the doors ya know? AA has done just fine without you this far-if you want to leave, no one will stop you
     
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    I'd suggest going to a meeting - I went to a few when I got to a real low point in my life a few years back. I think its a big step mentally to go. People there aren't going to judge you - I was so scared I didn't say one word to anyone, just sat in a corner, sucked down cigarettes, and listened for a few nights.

    I never went back to a meeting after my first few, and I didn't stop drinking, not because I didn't find the experience or ideals valuable. Even though I didn't give up drinking, going to a few meetings was a real gut check emotionally. Sometimes it helps to take a step outside your own life, even if just for a few minutes, and look at yourself. The experience and stories I heard definitely helped me on the way to changing my attitude and growing up a bit.
     
  11. mikeyo1

    mikeyo1 I'm gonna get my Eagle on, meet me at the star

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    Just wanted to give you a personal update since we are kind of struggling with the same thing. I wanted to go out tonight and watch some of the game with a friend. He bought me a Bud Light and I took small sips for nearly two hours. I just went through the night slowly nursing that one beer. I still had fun, still enjoyed the night, and was able to keep it at one - with no desire to have another when I finally finished the one. I'm pretty satisfied with this, and really did keep the AA "One day at a time" mantra in my mind. I just kept telling myself that I could have ONE and only ONE and was able to keep it together. Hopefully, this will continue. Good Luck...
     
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    if you're an alcoholic, you're days are numbered
     
  13. Original

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    this is huge.. friends will drag you down. "ill just have 1 more" is what you'll say every 15 minutes.. just run it through your head and tell yourself "i don't need it"
     
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    these control methods dont work for alcoholics tho
     
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    CRXican God Loves Ugly

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    how do you know you've gotten that far

    self control just doesn't disappear one day and you're an official alcoholic

    I still have trouble with this. There's no diagnosis.
     
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    worst advice ever.

    you have a drinking problem, and you have admitted it. what makes AA any different? there are steps you have to take to stop drinking..aa will help you..

    i guarantee there are meetings closer than an hour away..i can help you find em if you need to..just go, dont take the first drink, find a sponsor, and watch yourself grow...things will work out
     
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    You just got to learn when to "stop".... Looks like you haven't got too far and realize you have a problem.

    It's not just alcohol, but when you open a bag of chips... you said you're gonna eat a little, but pretty soon half the bag is gone..
     
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    only you can decide that for yourself
     
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    camrytt Sexual Deviant

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    if i click on aa.org and it makes me cry a sign that i need help? ugh/rofl.
     
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    camrytt Sexual Deviant

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    I looked up places near me that have AA meetings at least, so thanks for that. I've messed up so many things. I know I can go to this meeting....... i just don't know if i will. ahg
     
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    you don't have to be willing, just go. part of me was scared to go to my first meeting because i was afraid i would find answers, and then, ignorance couldn't be an excuse to use anymore.
     
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    i woke up in intensive care after a night of fun. rather than look for meetings i took up triathlon.

    just find a new hobby. it worked for me.
     
  23. esrever

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    So very true. I fall for the one will be okay every couple of months.
    Meetings aren't for everyone, I've tried and it just wasn't my cup of tea. But you need a support group of some kind to help you through.
     
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