not too long ago, i posted a thread about me and a best friend of mine. to make a long story short, he and i crossed the friendship boundaries and then i didnt hear from him until months later. this hurt me very much. i told him this when we finally did speak again and he said it was because he felt 'awkward' about it. well tonight i had to do one of the hardest things. i had to say goodbye to my best friend. i couldn't do it anymore. i couldnt yo yo between being friends and being more than friends. now i am very, very sad. i swear, this year has been the toughest one of my life. I have experienced more emotional pain and heartache in the past 6 months than in my 20 years here on earth.