for the first time in I don't know how many years. We sat at McDonalds with our children (she has 12 and 5 year old girls, and my 9 year old daughter) for 3.5 hours talking. It felt really weird to say the least. It felt good. We have been slowly in contact again (spending little bits of time together or on the phone). I am still really nervous and unable to truly let down my guard with her (which I doubt will ever happen again to be honest). Just a little 'update' for those of you who know my story.