Hey all, I've never really posted anything in the Asylum before, I don't feel depressed or anything. I've just come to the realisation that I pretty much base my whole life off my interaction with girls and such. Is this a really bad thing? Firstly, a little background info. I went to an all boys private school, and I associated with friends that were really into girls, and tried to get into school dances (grade 9+ only allowed, so we didn't go). I used to be really social, went to the movies etc went out on the weekends. Then when I chose to lose that group of friends, after a bad girl mishap (went out with a 'slut' and got the bad rap because of it), I moved onto a group of guys who liked girls but never really itneracted with them much. I feel this was the start of what has made me today. I didn't go to any more of those school dances for fear of going alone (because my friends were not interested) so I was out of the girl scene for about 3 years until I woke up and realised I had to get a date for my formal. Unfortunately after 3 years out of knowing the girls that went to the 'sister school', I had no idea who anyone else was, and I had recently had the Internet connected at home so I used that to chat frequently. One day, a girl added me to MSN, and I found her MSN group and added a girl from the MSN group, and talked to her and the whole lot. Ended up taking her to my formal, and I was friendzoned because I never made my move. Anyway, while this was happening I had got my first part time job (yeah I was 17 and I didn't get one till my parents bought me a car, meh). This job had 2 girls I liked heaps but never plucked up the balls to ask them out, seeing as I had virtually no experience whatsoever. Fast forward to the start of Uni, and I had picked out at least one girl from every class I was in to talk to. I never talked to any of the girls, and I had pretty much stopped watching TV and stuff I did in high school in favour of getting on the internet and chat rooms, due to my job (pizza delivery). I got a lot of random girls on my MSN and I talked to them about the girls at uni, and that's all I ever talked to them about (needed advice, plus there's not heaps to talk about to complete randoms on the net). After 4 semesters of looking at the girls and never talking to them, I was pretty annoyed at myself with all the "what if's". During the 4 semesters at uni, I hardly talked to anyone, because I was afraid it might lessen my chances of being able to talk to that girl I really wanted to talk to, and I only really made one good friend at uni, who I now don't see often as the classes we took are different to each other now. I feel as though I can't get into the party scene at all at uni, because I live 40 minutes drive away from the uni, and as such I have not had any more than about 2 close friends and a few acquaintances since I started uni. I spent my summer holidays working my ass off so that I can afford to upgrade my car every year (I like to modify my cars, but essentially a 'ricer' so I am saving up hard all the time so I can finally buy a nice car). During my 5th semester at uni, I met a really nice girl but she ended up having a boyfriend and essentially just used me for conversation during the tutes. It took me until this semester, to pluck up the balls and talk to a girl in my lecture. I did this, dated her and stuff, and now I'm dating her. This has led to a breakdown of what's been happening all before in my life. I have been chasing for 3 years or more, now I've finally got it, I've got another void in my life, because I have been abandoning all my really good friends for the sake of chasing some girls. Any advice?? Just needed to get that out.