First off my relationship is in danger of ending, and I contribute a lot of it to my inability to communicate effectively. I'm also really unhappy in my choosen career (that I went to school for) and I think part of that is the job I have now and that also may be from my inability to communicate properly. I'm an accountant and trying to study for the CPA exam and the stress of working 40+ hours a week and studying is really wearing me and my relationship down, but I don't even know if that's the problem. I feel like I can only identify either happy or unhappy and I can't even pinpoint why exactly I'm unhappy, I just feel confused. I also have a huge feeling of guilt over feeling like a failure over not being 'good' at my job and not really exceling after getting a degree and not being able to sucessfully pass these exams (I've taken 1 out of 4 and I failed it...I got a 65 and I needed a 75 to pass.) My father died a little over a year ago and he really wanted me to be an accountant and he was really proud of me graduating and I know that he's dead and he doesn't know that I hate accounting but somehow I still feel like I'm letting him down. I'm just at this point where I have no idea what to do. Do I just forget accounting and try something else? Do I tough it out and pass the exam and try to get a different job and see if things work out? And I don't even know where to start with my boyfriend situation. I just feel like I can't get my shit together and now it's wearing him down. He thinks I need to get therapy for the grief about my dad and other stuff but now I'm starting to think I should have done that months and months ago and maybe it's too late.