This is somewhat of an emo post but basically I can only really convince myself to begrudgingly work out like twice a week recently. I feel sorta shitty about it but at the same time, its like I never really got anywhere in the gym anyways so not much of a loss. I can think of a number of excuses... I'm tired, my head hurts, I hate my gym (I really do), I don't want to be sore, I'd rather do something else, etc. After 20 months of bulking and the past 4 months of cutting I'm better than I was before... slightly leaner and with more muscle mass but I'm still pretty weak. Even when I go to the gym, its not like once I start working out I feel better or after I'm done I feel better. I find it hard to stay for my whole workout half the time because I'd rather just leave. I get extremely tired as soon as I get home and generally just eat something and crash. This isn't a question of finding logical rationale to go to the gym, but moreover just a question of motivation. Is just the consistent caloric deficit killing my motivation? Until I started cutting I used to get to the gym a lot more. Is the lack of results just making it seem less worthwhile than it is? Is it low testosterone? What the hell?