I Have been diagnosed bipolar type 2, manic deppressive, and depersonalization disorder. My brain is completely messed up, everyday i wake up and feel like im living inside a video game, like a dream i have been trying so hard to get better and just move on but i feel like my life is over. I just feel like everything i dreamed of becoming has gone away and will never come back. I am on medication right now and feel like a zombie. I just wish i could go back in time and change myself. You only have 1 life and i wasted it. I really dont want to die but i feel its something that has to happen.