Everything in my life has fallen in around me again and I cannot take it anymore. I do not want to die but I do not want to live and deal with it anymore. My wife has left due to my stupidity. If I do not pass a revenue objective at work by next Thursday I lose my job. All my friends have abandoned me. I have no money, I am within one paycheck of being flat broke. I have nothing and nothing to look forward to. I would do it today if I knew that I would not go to hell. I cannot deal with this anymore. If I lose my job that will be it. There really would be no point in going on. I miss my wife so fucking bad and I cannot talk to her or contact her. Her myspace says that she has separated from me. I walk around on egg shells all day thinking that someone is following me and waiting to serve me papers. Dear God what did I do to deserve this life. My whole life has been nothing but misery, why go on.