ok, this is honestly getting to the point where even i realize im acting ridiculously. ive got a great girl is really likes me.. always have a great time, really connect, she is smart, and very sane. and im thinking that i might have to stop seeing her just because the more into me she gets the more i have the urge to gtfo. the fact that she is even contemplating something serious makes me want to break up with her to try to avoid it being worse for her later, when she finally realizes im not joking when i tell her im not the cute house and 2 kids, and an suv kinda ith y. I feel like im wasting her time and energy and that im taking advantage of her. the posibility that i might actually decide to settle with her or anyone else as the last girl i ever have date seriously/have sex not that seriously with is inconcievable. im 26 years old... shouldnt i be feeling some urge for stability or some such? to complicate things, its a long distance and open relationship. the open part definitely more for me then her, though she did once "break up with me" to date some other guy for a while... So she is basically putting up with my lack of attentivity, having sex with other girls, and just in general not treating her like she deserves...im angry at her for not being here. she has the best of reasons (grad school) but i cant forgive her for insisting on making this something so serious when she simply does not have the time to devote to it. Any attempt to keep things light on my part is met with the strongest most persistant resistance. I "put up" with her being not with me 10 months out of the year, and her constant need to talk on the phone as best i can, which isnt nearly enough for her. everything is just so good when shes here though I love the time i spend with her, but i could go a week or two without a phone call and be happier then saying goodbye on the phone every night. i only get to spend like 6 weeks a year with her. it just isnt worth it, but on the other hand, how can you get let go of someone great. ill be fine by myself. id rather be by myself then in a long distance relationship. but i want her to be happy. i wish some other guy would sweep her off her feet. I cant ever imagine looking her in the eye and telling her i dont want her though... im sorry this probably is a bit rambling and disorganized, but im just going to post it before i change my mind.